It has always been a wishful thinking of mine to go to The Land of The Rising Sun one day
Well I didnt know the opportunity will come unexpectedly..

The cousin has been pushing me to go to Japan with her,
Now I would eagerly agreed under normal circumstances but the timing was not a good one..
It was much too soon, I had so many other things mapped out for the next few couple of months..
So when she said she intends to go in middle Feb, I was hesitant.

I rejected her with a heavy heart as much as she is still trying to tempt me in so so so many ways
And I was so close to say 'yes'..
But I am so not surprise that I will somehow say 'yes' by the end of today if I dont guard my weakness and surrender to her lure...

Urrrghhhh..dont you hate priorities!!!!

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Thanks to Miss Ryehan and her cool dad and bro
I am so hook on Bryan Adams all over again..sighhh..

How come songs these days are not cool like this anymore eh?
Yeah, we are old souls inside, aren't we babe? hehee

Is it just the people around me or is every girl having the post-valentines blues??

To all my ladies
For all the heartburn, the tears, the pain, the shattered trust,
We will come out from this stronger..

Men seriously have issues with thinking thru their brains, much less to expect them to feel some compassion for us... It takes a man with real balls for him to come down on his knees to be responsible for the hurt that was intentionally imposed.
Pun fully intended.

Think again if to be in love is suppose to bring you happiness and joy, why are we crying more then we are smiling..?

Pardon me if my angst seems very 'female chauvinistic' but i simply cannot fathom the stories i heard from the worthy ladies that you scorned men do not so rightly deserve.

Another early day ...
Sigh...

Something in me compels to start walking ahead without looking back
Im not leaving something behind
Its the gnawing feeling that eats me up if i grew so attach to it and end up getting hurt

Isnt it funny when beautiful things happen to you,
You thought what did you do to deserve that?
Just when you begin to expect things to grow into something worthwhile, it turns awry..

Everything in Life are simply fragile aren't they..?

Ok although the coughing fits has not totally disappear yet, i feel slightly better :)
I am just so glad that the dreaded flu is gone!

Anyways other then the lame state of my health, the week has been lovely indeed.
A nice man by the initial of Mr LMT treated me to a dinner last Tuesday, we tried Sakura International Buffet at Downtown East. I have to say they provide more variety than Seoul Garden! Our friend here was of course, got so orgasmic when he saw a spread of sashimi lay out in front of his eyes who apparently could not get enough of his raw salmon. Although, the throat was killing me , the moment I saw the buffet I langgar the notions of avoiding certain food for the sake of my health!
Hey you, Thanks aplenty for the dinner as well as your time spent! To be in your accompany has always been wonderful!

And yesterday while almost all soccer fans were busy occupying the National Stadium to watch Singapore vs Indonesia, I was on my way to the indoor stadium for work and also to go and watch a basketball match which i do not have whatsoever regrets, it was Singapore Slingers vs Melbourne Tigers and heh oh boy! It was hot dudes galore like literally! I didnt expect the Singapore Slingers team to consist mostly foreigners. Nevertheless, it was entertaining! Singapore lost by a mere 86 to 91 but it was a good match, no kidding la! Despite me and a few other ladies were playing pick and choose which players was a better looker! No no we are not bimbos, we were just having our share of fun ;)

Plus today like any other days, was jam-packed! Highlight of the day? I got my hands on swinging golf clubs! Hey some say it's a rich man's sport but it was no easy feat hor! The different golf clubs was bloody heavy to swing! It was fun la to try out je k! I mean I never know when will I ever get a chance to feel 'tai-tai' mah!
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By the way, I cant wait to watch Dreamgirls when it premieres here soon!

Beyonce new track 'Listen' from the movie is so inspiring to listen! Man if only i could sing my lungs out like her!!! Check out the video and see it yourself!

Listen, 
To the song here in my heart 
A melody I've start 
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within 
It's only beginning 
To find release 

Oh, 
the time has come 
for my dreams to be heard 
They will not be pushed aside and turned 
Into your own 
all cause you won't 
Listen....

[Chorus]
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads 
I'm not at home, in my own home 
And I tried and tried 
To say whats on my mind 
You should have known 
Oh, 
Now I'm done believin you 
You don't know what I'm feelin 
I'm more than what, you made of me 
I followed the voice
you gave to me 
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened 
There is someone here inside 
Someone I'd thought had died 
Sooo long ago

Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard 
They will not be pushed aside on words 
Into your arms 
All cause you won't 
Listen...

[Chorus]

I don't know where I belong 
But i'll be movin on
If you don't....
If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart 
A melody I've start 
But I will complete 

Oh,
Now i'm done believin you
You dont know what I'm feelin 
I'm more than what, you made of me 
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me 
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

Finally i dare myself to make the switch to the new upgraded blogger!
Testing testing..heh whah so easy can change color without usin html eh! Initially i was afraid of making the change!

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Anyways another one bites off the dust last Saturday.. The sister among us all got hitched!
She was glowing the whole time..

Aahhh see what love does to you..
The things i would do to be in her place


It was nice to catch up with friends who we have not met in a while, albeit it was a short period!
No worries expect an R.S.V.P invitation coming your way soon this Feb ;)









The night ended with the 3 best friends chilling out at Starbucks cafe Northpoint. I could not help but reflected back the yesteryears..

10 years back we were 13, this was the very neighbourhood where it all started, where we first knew each other, the place where we trudged ourselves for the next 5 years for most of the week, the familiar faces we saw, the usual hunt for so many things. I wonder if Northpoint could speak will she say 'oh look how far they've come'.. Heh come to think of it, Northpoint was the place where we used to seek our solace, hot fudge/peach sundaes at the basement whenever we got something to celebrate, or need the sweetness to perk us up after a bad day at school or the simple fact we were just hungry. And the most visited place had to be the toilets at the basement without fail whenever we were there. Powdering ourselves up, adjusting the uniforms, the hair, looking into the mirror several times to make sure we look our best although we were heading home hehee actually the habit remains till now..

Snapping back into reality, i asked my lovely 2 babes if ever did it cross their minds that eventhough we used to talk about what we will be 10 years from then did it ever occured to them that we have finally reached the decade and to know where we are now..

Personally I dont, if my life could be rewinded on real time and watch myself during pubescent,i believe i will laugh so hard. And tell her myself, Girl you are in for a real treat, Life has barely begun! I remembered how i love to daydream a lot!

Although Elfy did mention significantly funny

"Well i think we made a vast improvement ladies, moving up from the first floor to this second floor"

With that the 3 of us burst into laughters! Haha how can we not? We used to frequent the Macdonalds below, now here we are at Starbucks sipping in expensive sparkling orange juice.

Heh..Life huh?

I wonder what it will be come next 10 years?

Elfy predicted we all be mummies with prams and the works! Such an adorable insight :)
Although im not surprise if im the last one to tie the knot heh,so far ive been right
Another lady will sign her life away this August and a certain someone who i shall not disclose for now will commit her wonderful relationship to the next level very soon. And she knows very well that i have been very accurate with my all prediction so far ;) *yes im winking at you babe*

As for you all, quit guessing when mine will be can? I intend to make sure that i get to give my speech during you you you you and yous wedding before you all can make yours during mine

Unless of course..

Loves takes the express service and comes my way, i reckon it will take awhile..

Lis is not fussy. For all you never know i maybe actually be in love.. BUt lets leave that for another time if its worth mentioning at all ;) Hehe how i love making you guys hanging by a thread!

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How funny when the past couple of weeks, i have been in tip-top shape even when i was showered in the rain or the weather gets too heaty, i never fall sick.. And to stay home the whole of Sunday, the dreaded flu bug came to attack me...sighhh..it is the last thing i need now...

Mama obviously is waiting for this moment since she has been naggin non-stop at me for not heeding her to take in supplements pills like the vitamin C la, the fish oil tablets la, the ape ape lagi la.. God i hate pills hokay! Looks like she's not taking chances and if she have to sit in front me to see me swallow each and every pill,i know damn well that this lioness will do..

This photo was taken almost month back



Which means it's been awhile since i met my favourite boy, another person who is constantly in my mind no matter how pre-occupied i am

Then i was told by mama that he was sleeping over last thursday! You dont know how that made me look forward to the end of my day praying i would finished work early!

Sadly! I came back after midnight and he was already fast asleep which was no fun! Since i only have a measely few hours to spare on Friday morning to play with him :( Nonetheless, he was worth every little time spent.. I miss him so much that i woke up instantly at 6am when he came into my room and smother me with kisses! Oh how i miss those!! Made him a hearty breakfast, found myself willingly reading to him the same book several times a task which used to get on my nerves,teasing him senseless and laughing at the way he is learning to talk! Oh my god! He is talking already you know!!!

When it was time to get my ass to work, i was really half hearted to leave the house
especially when this cherubic angel cried so hard when i left.. Sighh..now i have miss him already, the only consolation is to recall all the funny things that he did the other day to mama and laugh how witty and smart he has become!

I so hope it wont be another month till we see each other again..I grew attached to this boy before my plain life starts getting busy and the luxury of seeing him whenever i want to has became so scarce..Yes i love my nephew this much, how can i not when he was under our care while his parents was at work since he was 5 months old! It seems that he is still a little baby to us but he is already turning 2 next month!Oh boy, kids these days are growing up fast eh

Mama had it all planned yesterday, to lure me to JB,when all i wanted to do was to stay home on a Sunday.

All the way to JB Angsana just so she could buy her table mats that she had been eyeing, so that she could sleep peacefully at night i went ahead and followed her.Tsk tsk,I cannot wait to see how long her fad for balinese homestyle is going to last.

It was a good thing that she insisted on going because i thought i could shop, my wardrobe is getting dull hehee. It is a valid excuse what! But surprise surprise, usually when i change my dollars into ringgit the money would be gone in a jiffy, yesterday there was nothing much that eagers me to pounce on like a mad woman and purchase. Mama was obviously puzzled when i still got plenty more of cash to spare. Not wanting to believe that her daughter was not her usual impulsive self, she gave me a second chance and dropped by City Square again (yes again!). In the end i got a hooded top from Mango, 70% off so its worth the price plus ive been searching for a nice hooded top. Thus, all i bought was a top from Mango, a vintage tee from F.0.S (my fav haunt for cool tees with real cheap price) and my ultimate favourite item that i got at Angsana was this new couture-like mug! I love the design lor! Makes me want to drink more coffee! Super chic i think!Heh Only RM5!



And Monday was a no blues! Especially when i get to meet Elfy, talked about Mission Decade and the excitement brewing from just imagining it simply leaves us in a daze and breathless! We are nuts like that!

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'aku rindu aku malu
bagaimana cara mengatakan kepadamu
oh inginku aku cinta aku sayang
mungkinkah dapat merasakannya'

So I am cheeky and have been singing this tune

Mama said "Ingatkan sedap la suara die tu"

Cant you tell mama? Its not about the sedap or not, for all i care the mirrors at home can break into a thousand pieces but its all in the words mama-mia! The words that says it all.

One week of 2007 has almost passed,there was no slowing down whatsoever for me to grasp a moment and start the year with a new breath of life

The week has been tight per se,and im so glad it is the weekend, i vowed to let my brain cells have its time of day early late friday evening! I treated myself to some serious snacks shopping spree and also bought a box of hot chocolate powder whilst i was wandering alone at northpoint cold storage after work,Bridget Jones and me can get along very well especially when chocolate is the cure for being pathetically emotional, dont ask me why but lately the craving for hot chocolate needs immediate attention!

It excites me as well when the hot chocolate was a great company when i was watching SCTV episode of By Request Yang Terpilih the title of Rossa's best hits album, and she had guests like Ungu and Naff to perform with her, with songs like Aku bukan untukmu, Kau masih kekasihku,Terlatu Cinta,Aku bukan pilihan hatimu, Atas nama cinta, and so on, i swear Valentine's came early for me!Even the light drizzling of rain felt like winter thus making me feel warm and fuzzy..

And Saturday has been rather kind to me too! Today,i had the best practical ever,despite the past lessons i was guarded and nervous on the road, today i believed i deserve a pat on the pat because i think i am getting more endearingly attached to the steering wheel, today it felt like i was driving my instructor around, rein-free, a bit more compose and confident!Next week, he said we are heading to Ubi to book my TP and also to let me practice the roads there. Heh yes,i know macam betol je i chose UBI for my TP. Almost everyone that i shared the info with got bewildered,of all driving centres why the hell did i pick the venue 'of the apparently so-hard-to-pass-the-road-is-a-killer' but well si pandai ni konon nak face the demons and step terror once and for all to conquer her fear!Insyallah!

Later i got the pleasure of meeting Miss Baidah who is obviously basking in happiness with the current state of her life, you hor woman make sure dont neglect me now that you have someone you can feeling-feeling with! I must make sure that both you and Elfy make time for me! Hehee but irregardless of how busy we all are especially you both got to juggle me and your boyfriends, i wish nothing but joy in your relationships! Same goes out to my other close bud, isly, who is anticipating the arrival of her beau, next week! As much as as you deny it, you are counting down the days his plane touches down in Changi baby!

And to a couple of my girlfriends who is going through a rough patch.. Time will prevail everything darls, another bad chapter noted but hey happy ending will be all yours eventually!

Anyways i am so looking forward to the next coming weeks, wedding invitations, party-planning to be due soon, an upcoming trip for a weekend getaway with a bunch of girlfriends gets me all excited! Birthdays and more birthdays are occuring right after the other for the next couple of months straight!!! Darn before we all know it, it will be half way through 2007!!!!