I need to allocate a day to clear the cluttered mess on my desk...
Like seriously..


Its almost a hazard and this is only the desk.. I really envy those people who are able to maintain their workstation neat and tidy.

Anyways Kak Lini and myself were invited to AUDI R8 Media Press Conference last Thursday, other then feeling a bit odd being the only Malays there or at least Malay females I was stunned when the AUDI Car designer introduced the world race driver who was actually seated inches away from me chatting away happily before the presentation started. I was sane enough not to let my jaw dropped but gave Kak Lini a look I believe only she could decipher as 'Oh my god!! I cant believe who he is all along and I think I am going to hyperventilate now!!!' in a very compose manner.

Moving on, the most interesting thing about the Press Con besides the launch of the AUDI R8, was the vintage racing cars which is brought in to Singapore to be displayed at the National Museum till the 2nd of December. It should appeal to those who has deep admiration for automobiles and the mechanics of it.

So I conclude, I must get someone who affords this jewel. But like Kak Lini said, we shouldnt be driving it, we shall get someone to drive us around. I couldn't agree more. I'm not exactly a fan of high performance vehicles but trust me, this one is really a gem.


Ehem I mean the vehicle not the man lah..heh.

But honestly, i am more contented to have a man with a heart of gold.. we can cycle (or rather he cycle) to the sunset together and he offers me a lifetime of abundance romance. awwww mushy kan! I'm soo capable of this and many more,hehee.

I took the train last Sunday, it was a bad hair day and I had puffy eyes.
What smart way to hide them but with my cap and shades, well it was a good fashionable excuse too.

Little did I know when I turned and took my seat in the train, there was a man behind me. He took a seat opposite mine. So when I adjusted myself properly and made a passing glance to him, I suddenly became mesmerized. This stranger was smiling ..at me. And he was the most gorgeous thing to see so early in the morning. I was quite taken aback that he smileI didn't manage to return him a full one but a lopsided grin.

Why am i making SUCH a big fuss out of this stranger? Nothing much but he had made me realised something, I hadn't drool at any man for the longest time and its good to know I can still receive tingles of excitement when I see someone attractive. This stranger he was tall, very well built his muscles filling in the polo ralph tshirt he was wearing. The outdoorsy type if you get what I mean, heh. His face was such a pleasant to see with a smile which i couldn't resist. I stole a glance at him each time he didnt look my way.

All that lasted only for about 10 mins, 2 stations from woodlands till sembawang. My drop off point. I was reluctant to leave actually..hehee strangely he somehow made my morning that day extra sweet. So sweet that I was jolly happy, I announced to the people at work that I was lucky to meet a greek god on the way to work. In fact the moment I hop off the MRT, I strarted skipping my way to my collegue's car, jumped in, paused for a few seconds before I told her 'I saw a REALLY good looking guy and he smiled'..sighhh..

Bless this gorgeous man for he had reawaken my senses. I am looking forward to drool at more delicious looking men. Maybe I should pay more attention to my surroundings next time, hehee..

Blahhh..but I am very sure this happens a lot to you people out there!

If there is a next time, and if i have enough courage I just might use Natalie Portman's line in the movie Closer, 'Hello Stranger..'

The Sister had finally flew off Tuesday morning. And so now it feels like im the only daughter at home. Just when the little pest is not at home, i really miss bugging her day in and day out.

It's her first trip overseas alone and all the family members had been paranoid what she needs to pack, how many to bring, how thick should her socks be, yadaa yadaa.. So paranoid, I actually discussed with her what or how she has to wear for the next 7days she will be away. The things we do for someone we care or rather spoilt them. I didnt know what got into me and my mama, when we didnt have second thoughts to get her a costly winter coat from Mango, we were still surveying around for the best buy (without the sister no less) but the salesperson were so darn good that i couldn't resist purchasing it in a heartbeat after I tried it on myself, thinking I could share this with her and bring it along for my trip next year.

My sister not looking so bad, i think and no photos of me because i thought i look horrible.

A few sms-es exchanged with her

Sister: Kak, adik already in beijing. Pls tell mama it's so cold here! Tak macam aircon! And maybe bsok ada snow!

Ok I cant believe she compared the cold weather there with the aircon which made our family laughed senselessly!

Me: Is it? So adik pakai how many layers of baju?

Testing to know if she heed my advice to wear her clothes in layers.

Adik: 6

When she replied with the number 6, i feel like spanking her. Such a waste to send an sms with a single digit! And Im paying both her's and my phonebill. Sigh..

And yesterday the adik sent another few smses

Sister: Kak, im going shoppin frm 3pm - 6.30pm tell mama

Ignoring that sms she sents another one after a couple of hours

Sister: Kak adik dah buy for u baju. Tell mama to col me at 8.30pm ltr

I find that endearing that she got me something, so far before she left I didnt pester her to get me anything at all. I just want her to have a good time exploring the country and visiting such historic places that I would die to go too!

Anyways speaking of clothes, the irony of having to wear the same colour with a few friends from work. Hah we look like a football team. I think the colors worn reflects the attitude for the day as well.

Like i wore yellow because I was feeling sunny and chirpy.

Red for an agressive day, with the apt tagline on it 'Go for Gold' heh.

Still speaking of clothes, I spent my day last Sunday with Baidah. Dropped by her place, helped her cooked before we packed and went over to my place since my darling nephew was here. So my dear friend was complaining she had bought 5 new flats in a few days, showed me a dress she wore asking my consent if it looks good and so on. Judging from her expression i thought she looks very guilty and thus sought my comfort hoping I will say its all worth it.

Honestly, looking upon her items and how good she is dressing up lately makes me feel inadequate. I haven't been caring to look good lately. My daily routine would be, just grab and wear whatever I see in my wardrobe. Some days when I feel a bit dainty I put on a bit of blusher on my cheeks, otherwise its just powder up, mascara and lipgloss. By the end of the day without touching up I look half dead already. Shopping took a backseat as well, whenever I have the luxury to shop I ended up not buying anything after having second thoughts not because I'm broke but the urge vanished as quickly as it came.

I should give myself a treat one of these days and get myself something new. I could use a couple of new shoes that's for sure, hahaa. So maybe babe wanna set a date with me anytime soon?

Although I am very puzzled that both you and Farah said the same thing ironically, that I can still pull off the slack look even when I just wear anything shabby. Either you guys are too kind or simply blind! Oh my god, it rhymes!

A meet up with 2 of my great buddies had never been easy, the 3 of us will never be available all at the same time. However! Last Friday evening it was as simple as "are you free after 7pm?"

For once it was just bliss to kick back my sandals, relax and talk about anything and everything.
To throw back my head and laugh, till the tummy starts to ache and happy tears starts pelting down my cheeks.

Some conversations were unsound, corrupted even, plenty of slapstick one liners. Both man confessed it slipped their conscious they were talking to a lady, I'm just flattered to be given the title of the 'all fly zone woman' . Oh how i miss spending my time hanging out with both Rajan & Durai! Like brothers to me, they can be honest about the most sensitive things some people will not even dare to say it to my face like they do besides being a pair of 'stand up comedians' to cheer me up.

They are going off to Brazil this Xmas, and for not bringing me along they were not spared from my harping of a million reasons why having a girl on the trip should be very useful. But when that didn't work at all, I demanded them to bring me back a gorgeous looking Brazilian and nothing less as a nice souvenir for me. They of course came up with a couple of clever sarcasm.

So excited they are about their trip the guys have been working out their buff lately. Heh. I couldn't help but gave them my snigger for the obvious agenda or shall i say one of the main agenda why they are doing so. They sure have already envision all the hot babes that they 'think' will greet them once they touch down.

To which they gave a reply typical of a red blooded man "Baby, we don't have plans for Brazil. Brazil has plans for us".. Haha so chauvinistic was the remark that all of us erupted into a series of laughter.

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I think James Morrison rocks my world now!

"It's like I hardly know you
But maybe I never did
It's like every emotion you showed me
You kept well hid
And every true word that you ever spoke
Was really deceiving
Now I'm leaving this time
Coz this is my last goodbye

I've gotta turn and walk away
I don't have anything left to say
I haven't already said before
I've grown tired of being used
And I'm sick and tired of being accused
Now I'm walking away from you
And I'm not coming back"

~The Last Goodbye~

Meeting Elfy last Sat was what I needed, a mellow down night affair.

Did a lot of catching up while she was cooking dinner, stories after stories with her boyfriend Syed joining us a little bit later..

Some that triggered anger, some tears, and quite a lot of giggles as we 'usik' each other, heh we have a habit of teasing each other. Sadly Baidah wasnt able to join us last minute but you are forgiven, we'll meet each other soon ok? Both of us misses you dreadfully..

Ended the night with a pleasant surprise from Syed, who was sweet enough to offer a ride back all the way from Tampines to Marsiling, in his barely a day old Red Honda Stream to which Elfy let out a shocking gasped when she was a bit puzzled where did his black mobile gone too.. Haha I couldn't help but was touched by Syed's romantic gesture to surprise his girlfriend. But being Elfy, she recovered as quickly looking not so impressed at all.

We parted ways with deep hugs and kisses whispering to each other we shall meet soon.

And yesterday, was considered the third time I went out with the family for Raya visiting. Haha yes almost 'basi'. The dad had to join us later after his work so all his favourite ladies had a head start, met mama and the sister after I finished my work routine on Sunday and save some journey time by getting a lift from Mr Fadly.

With Mama

I believe this shall be our last round of visitings unless the invitations of open houses will stop coming in! After the last house we went yesterday I just had to beg mama to visit a boy I have been missing so much..

He lights me up instantly! My god the boy as grown I tell you, I could no longer carry him in one swift motion! He talks a lot too, geramnye! I shall treat him a visit to the Zoo very soon since he was pestering it from me yesterday..

Oh but Rayyan is not the only boy I have been 'geraming' with lately! I had a hard time keeping my hands off Zynedine (did i spell it correctly kak lini?heh)! So adorable until cannot tahan!

Ms Lini your son makes us ladies look so extra good!!

With the mother herself, my other favourite person!

Whenever someone who is aware of the existence of a certain man I had grown fond for almost a year and a half, asks if I am still smiling myself silly when it comes to him?

I wish then I could chunk out the period of one year and a half he sorta stole my heart never occured. Endless great conversations, the world cup betting, the laughters, the wonderful dates,
discovering how much we love seafood platter, his charm and wit. I willed myself not to fall for any of it but I did.

All I could offer was a weak smile, gave a brief gist of the story and requested that let's all move on like he never came into my life, period (im still abit sore how ignorant he is).

At this point of another man who walked in and out as he deem fit, I couldn't care for another man as easily. There are a few nice ones who made an effort to indulge a conversation with me once in awhile, asking me out if im available for a date but currently i feel so blah. It's not easy when most of my peers are settling down or attached. But upon self reflection, I wonder how some of them are prepared to give up their singlehood . I may yearn for that special someone but I am far away from being a man's wife just yet.

That is the truth. The truth that I find laughing at my own self sometimes.Heh. It gets even funnier when I get people trying to pair me up with their sons or assuming that I am already attached. This is nothing to be boastful about actually but rather a tad bit embarrassing.

Never mind for now I have been disappointed again. But not to worry, there is never a day that goes by without me smiling and laughing. It must be the wonderful souls who surrounded my life with good aura. Resigning to my fate is having to give in to my weakness which is not a good sign so I shall not.

Okay enough of these inane ramblings, its about time I leave my office (heh yes at work). I'm off to meet my 2 favourite people in the whole universe my best friends (ok aside from my family of course). I bet it will be another female bonding session at its best! What with Elfy had moved to a place she can call her own. How fun! I have invited myself to come and crash her place anytime I want. Elfy cooks very well you know.

Sighh.. every new decision we make is another level up of us becoming more adult. Please correct me if i'm wrong but wasnt it just yesterday we were only 13, going crazy over Backstreet Boys and singing to Baby Hit me One More time?

Now, we barely have time for each other. We do have our squabbles due to this especially me and Baidah. Elfy is already a boss at her own stall, Baidah blossom into a corporate lady (my god this is so not her 10 years ago) and as for myself? I am busy losing myself into my work too. I love my job, even with all the #@$!% it came with. How do I know I love my job? Even after another exhausting day, I am still looking forward to go to work tomorrow :)

It pays to know what your interest are and where does your passion lies. Thus, for now this is the most important thing. A kind soul recently told me, it will come to you naturally without you searching for it. I heard that a million times but somehow she said it with much honesty. Coming from a lady who's already forty plus, im sure she knows what she is talking about.

Toodles!

One of the main reason i miss working on a Mac was how painless it was to manage one and it is not easily prone to virus like working on a pc platform...

Having said that, yes my lappie has been infected with Malwares actually means 'malicious softwares'. Never have I delved deep into finding out what they were until the other I spent the whole night reading and researching what it's all about .. That is how much we Mac users took for granted, well for me at least heh.

After much reading up and consulting the ever tech-savy Ms Lini & Hubby, I have to get my laptop to reconfigure. What I dread is having to back up my files..

Oh Joy! *with much sarcasm*

Other then this malwares thingy which put a pout on my lips because my system is not working properly, the past week or so had been fab. Enjoyable working hours despite work is strangely piling up again, we the crazy people at work had squeeze what little time we have for our own raya house visiting to the seniors. Proclaiming ourselves beyond camwhores, we took photos at every possible angle we could. Photos will be uploaded soon right after I have reconfigured my lappie..

The off day on Monday was spent shopping with mama and the sister in town. Very aptly, all retail shops are selling their winter collection. Excitement brewing on what to get for my sister's upcoming trip and it was hard holding back squeals of delightment everytime I saw apparels which caught my eyes. With the way I am coordinating what my sister should wear I have overlook the matter that it has to be practical for her. Heh let's not forget it is an educational trip afterall, but with the looks of it she is going to be dress up ready to strut the sidewalks cafe in paris..

To which I blatantly said to my sister ' maybe kakak should go instead, what do you think?' ..

Sigh she ought to pack her sister along, the least she could do is be sympathetic to how desperate I need a break. It wasn't helping at all that my intentions of going India/Kashmir is building up rapidly. If only I could motivate myself to save money in 4 months time.. We'll see.

You people take care and have a lovely day later!