I got myself a belated birthday gift, for which I had been lusting for

Lovely by Sarah Jessica Parker

She's simple, elegant, and never over the top. You love that she's a laid-back natural beauty. For your simple yet lovely gal, turn to Lovely by Sarah Jessica Parker. The scent layers unexpected fragrances like lavender, orchid, apple martini, and musk. It's delicate, light, and never over-bearing... which means only you will know when she's wearing it.



I like smelling like Sarah Jessica Parker! She is a fashion icon with undeniable good taste for fashion. She exudes herself simply yet classy and elegant, an epitome of a truly beautiful lady.

Personally I love the scent because it is very subtle but the whiff of the fragrance will remain unforgettable.

The catch? I got it with a very very good price!! Thanks to my mama! I love her networking! Its just beyond discount rate! I loike!

I was reeling with shocked when I found out. You left me in the dark for almost a year.

I didnt know how to react with my emotions running high, instantly Ive never felt this angry towards you like this before.

I had assumed when we closed our chapter we had done so with utmost mutual respect.

The charade you had been putting up for me all along had been another one of your lies.

This is not how I would like to learn of what was being told to me. If you could have been honest and sincere with our post friendship relationship, I would gladly accepted the news with much happiness. But the denials you gave, the missing me which you said, the good nights with sweet dreams which you sent all this while made me realised you will never change.

My tears for you is no longer that of a missing lover. I have long moved on with my life. But my tears for you now is the remorse of how I had made myself trust you.

I am very sure you have your reasons why you were hiding it for from me, if truth to be told I know you still love me. Sadly, I do not want to be a fool for the third time around, and I wasn't lying to you when I said I am doing fine with my life especially without you.

Gendeng.. I thought we could have been good friends which was what I wanted nothing more and nothing less. The essence of what we used to have will always make me fond of you,one of the sole reason why I never pushed you out of my life completely. But I dont think this will be possible if being honest is a chore for you.

Although I had my suspicious for quite awhile and despite the anger I felt I guess I am truly happy for you. I hope someday you will be man enough and come up to me to tell me yourself. Irony is so funny, I recalled you telling me receiving a wedding invitation with my name in it will be hard for you to swallow and that you will not be there to witness the day. But I guess life has a weird way of showing up surprises all the time.

After all that said, I would like to extend my congrats to you for your engagement. I am sure it is very long overdue..

" Pergi saja cintamu pergi
Bilang saja pada semua
Biar semua tahu adanya
Diriku kini sendiri

Padamkan saja
Kobar asmaramu
Jika putik itu takkan ada
Yang aku minta tulus hatimu
Bukan puitis"

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Kak Lini you have my most heartfelt thanks for making me feel better by pigging out with me for dinner last night. Seoul Garden left me feeling elated, very oriental way of doing it instead of resorting to your 2 favourite man but I refer them as my 2 best friends when I have my woes, Mr Ben and Jerry ;)

And to my LMT, you have been adorable in an annoying way. One of the reasons why my heart go jelly for you sometimes :)

"Ucapkanlah kasih
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup
Mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada dalam rinai hujan
Dalam terang bulan juga dalam sedu sedan
Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta padahal ia terasa
Dalam rindu dendam hening malam cinta terasa ada"


Like a hym to a crying heart,
A subtle plea fallen on deaf ears..

I have to say the song lyrics was written exceptionally beautiful.. Im hooked. It especially suits the mood with the recent cold weather.. Bbrrrr..

I was working on my birthday, never complained that I had too. I was looking forward since it will be sort of my last day with the kids as i was not able to join them for their last day of shoot the next day due to my commitment to another project.

Imagine how surprise I was (and irony) because i was the last one to board the bus everyone just burst into a birthday song! Needless to say that already lifted my sombre mood due to my lack of sleep.

Abg Roy, Herizal, and Kak mas gave me a shocked when I thought the persistent visit to Kak Mas's majlis after our filming was innocent! But what do ya know! It was my first surprise when amidst the so many people streaming in to her jemputan, they came in with a birthday cake. I didnt how to react to it at first but I was beaming with delightment :)

It was apt to celebrate it with the kids around. I made sure I took a photo with each of them before I bid my goodbyes. Its quite sad actually within a short span of time how close we all have known these beautiful kids, although sometimes their mischievous nature raise our blood to boiling point, at the end of the day they were adorable.





The naive boy but his curious character always make me smile..

The hyperactive boy among the lot! Very handsome and never fail to make me laugh with his A-Z story

My favourite chilli padi! It was coincidental she brought along chocolate cake for all to share on the day

The little girl actually got me a Dior perfume, but unfortunately she was not able to pass it to me personally instead left it on my desk. I was of course very moved by her thoughtfulness..








Actually eveyone at work had been an absolute wonderful bunch i cant really count how many birthday songs ive been sang even the day before my birthday. The jokes shared, the gifts given, the cards which is now residing on the wall of my cubicle with words that really moved me so much! They are such fun people!

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My day continued with my girls who had booked me for the entire evening! Although it might not somehow went according to plan, we ended the night with so much tears and laughter! Its been awhile since we all catch up and only Shidah i tell you only she can give us straight up bimbotic one liners which could have us all in stitches!

The highlight of our dinner has got to be the best of everything i ever had by far.. Shidah actually went up to the live band who had already packed their equipments and convinced them to come over to me and sing me the birthday song. Never had i blushed so much in my entire 23 years of my life! You guys overdid everything! So of course the whole of east coast lagoon (okay i exaggerate this part heh) were applauding and the UK couple whom we shared our table with were so nice to help snap our photos as well indulge in a good convo afterwards with regards to how good a sugarcane juice should taste in fact they ordered more food to join us for dinner and compared which bbq stingrays and kailans were better!

You know guys, that night was how i wanted it to be. A low key affair with you girls,nothing of the girls gone wild sort. I think its about time we all have grown up. Thank you for keeping me grounded and taking me away from all the craziness for a while to let me know how fun life I can be! Since Miss Siti Nurbaidah complained how serious I have become and its very obvious la you guys miss me so muchhhhhhh! I know! kheheheh



And insisting I still look gorgeous when I grumbled that there should not be plenty of photo taking because I looked so shacked and like a wreck! Indeed I looked like a wreck but the happy smile is very much genuine :))

The food was gobbled up in no time! The sotong is the best la! Very the touching of you guys knowing how much I simply love sotongs!! I heart you all k!

If i have a boyfriend you guys still win hands down for celebrating my birthday in the name of womanhood :), dont think he will come up with anything more romantic and endearing as it was that night..



*psst baidah love, its good to have you back again :)) double joy for that!

There is so many things going on around me, as much as I probe the people around me how important 14 July is, I barely feel I've aged another year. Maybe that was the reason why I went around annoying my friends at work and declare my special date,not because I want to sell myself to get more more gitfts but because I dont feel the importance of the date or shall I say the anticipation of the hype as my birthday is approaching as I used to do when I was a young girl.

I guess LMT was right, the age thingy is catching up on me...

Nonetheless thanks to the lovely souls who outdo certain things for me to feel really special this year, your gratitude shall be appreciated and cherished for long time to come :) I am still stunned when I think about the several surprises turned up for me..

There is nothing cliche about birthdays, it is the only day I believe sincerity is never questioned when its given.

Oh just a random photo of me looking content after a long day..The dinner date with the bestie days before my coming of age.. And I just think I look so old and tired, and the panda eyes is not helping at all. This is pretty much me these days. I rarely play with cosmetics as much as I used too. Im turning into a plain jane.. I sound so boring already doncha ya think? ;)


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'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.'

And so I was right, one of my close friends is one step closer to signing her life away to the man of her life on 07.07.07, it was quite emotional. As much as I have been to countless weddings and engagements, it is not the same when you see one of your close friends going to the next level of her relationship.

Shidah,

My personal message for you, congrats to finally trust your own intuition. As one of your good friends who knows what you have gone through,dare I say you are almost close to your fairy tale ending (insyallah it will be yours forever). Happy for you till no end babe especially the fact that I was right all along! I'm sure you know what I mean darlin ;)

Sharing some of your happy moments here, the song on my blog is dedicated for you!































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At the same time, Su's sister got hitch as well! One of the twins! Thanks for inviting us babe!

Kak yana look beautifully radiant, please tell her I say so!



We busy people need to meet up soon la, that measely few hours tak cukup tau! You dun wanna know how much I miss you guys!

You were beautiful babe! I'll upload the rest photos soon!

Despite the past few weeks has been crazy, especially the fact that 7% still need some getting used to..

Im so glad that I purchase certain items before the dreaded 1st July..

I finally gotten my new wardrobe!! My mama was on the verge of murdering me when nuthing seems to appeal to me each time we go out and look for it. In the end,i was at defeated by my own frustation and made my choice by picking it out of a catalogue,resign to my fate that it might not look good at all.





Alas i applaud for my choice and my stubborn choice of making sure it has to be a dark colored wardrobe!

I love it so much!

Never knew i had this much of clothes, and mama has been so adorable because she actually ironed all my clothes so that i can just grab and wear for work! Im spoilt I tell you!

And!

I finally bought myself a notebook thus I have been pouring all my attention to this latest toy of mine heh



So hello Mio!

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Anyways as promised, my couple photo with the one and only....



I swear he gave me a flirty wink when he bid his goodbye ;), I see a ray of hope...hehe

Bite your tougue Baidah!

You guys really dont have too think so hard..tee hee

Gwen Stefani concert ticket(s) next month will do just fine for July 14 ;)

Oh the ticket(S) has to be plural because obviously im not gonna watch alone right?

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And if you have plenty of cash to spare, you can get me Bumblebee (camaro). I think I might look good behind the steering wheel and yellow is my color. Hehe.. Transformers are sexy machines arent they?

One of my major turn on towards an attractive man would be when i see him dons the crisp white basic shirt like this...




Haiz..sexy bod, tall, handsome..I dont mind the paparazzi snapping our photos if im his girlfriend.

Ought to be flaunted.




Kate Bosworth is one lucky woman.