I cant help but keep humming to this so 'malas' and 'relax one corner' tune, on a lazy Sunday.

~Complain by Tweet~

I can sing about love lost
But what if there's no love to lose?
If everyday I saw sunshine
And it never rained the blues
If my fears were tears
I wonder could they fall
If a smile could stretch a mile
Even if I had no money at all
But I'm willin' to take
Whatever life brings
Cause you're the only one
Who seems to know me

And even when the bad times call
If I had you back
I wouldn't complain at all

I can dream about tommorrow
Even if it's still today
I'd wear down my knees every night
Even if I had no hands to pray
If my friends were dead and gone
Leavin' me here alone
Could I depend on some spirit
To ease me when my soul's on its own
If my eyes were blind
And I couldn't feel at all to see
Nothin' in this world but you complete me

And even when the bad times call
If I had you back
I wouldn't complain at all

Come back to me
If you just wanna hang out with the boys
I wouldn't complain
I wouldn't make a fuss
No not a noise
I wouldn't complain
Leave your socks on the dresser
And not in the drawer
I wouldn't complain
Just as well if you wanna watch your favorite sport, baby
I wouldn't complain
Change my way of living
I wouldn't complain
Show you much understanding
I wouldn't complain
For you
I wouldn't complain
Promise to love you more
I wouldn't complain

Last Monday, I met up with Shidah, Manja (Yati) and Sina. It was long time coming since all our previous meet ups had been cancelled several times due to our commitments.

After all the endless and aimless walking our final stop was to chill at Coffee Club Marina Square. It was wonderful since we had the place all to ourselves! We were seated right next to the glass panel that was looking out at Suntec City, very comfy,the ambience as the sun was setting, we girls we giggling over all sorts of random things before Sina joined us after her work. By then, it was major chaos!

Now despite, doing the compulsory gossiping we were also discussing plenty of important things. That was when it hit me and i had to intervene the ongoing conversation with

"Whoa! Gosh this is so deep! Did we actually grow up and started talking about adult issues?"

Needless to say we all broke into a series of laughter! I had to say that because the conversation was getting heavy with topics like financial stability, job security, job politics, and then it was relationship stepping up the next level to making the final commitment since Manja is now engaged to be married end of next year or January 2008. It gets us excited talking about the preps that needed to be done for weddings. Frankly speaking, as much as i love everything about weddings, it cannot measure how much more fear i have if i finally get hitch!!

And then the topic get more absurd as we talked about having children, things like post-birth depression, how many is enough, the planning and yadaa yadaa! But of course there were mushy moments when everyone goes 'awww', since i had to asked Manja what makes her think that her fiancee is 'the one' when she accepted his proposal. Then we ladies got high over caffeine (except me since i had Peach smoothie,very nice!) and Shidah started sharing her nightmare which the three of us believed was just another 'sweet dreams'! Sexual tension raised up a notch, as we ladies get a bit naughty and horny!Plus let's not forget to talk about the fine things in life, like holidays, high-end furnitures (Sina is an interior designer), cosmetics. Manja sharing with us her horror stories working on night shift in hospital (she's a nurse), Shidah and her money-mindedness (she's on the corporate side) and while me well talks about the nitty gritty details of working experience in the media industry i had so far.

If only i had brought my camera! I cannot believed that i left it at home! Well this is not to say we did not do any cam-whoring! So shidah,please email me those photos soon baby!

And hehe the most concrete conclusion we all agree except Shidah was, it doesnt matter how expensive your mascara is, or that it has the volumiser and whatsoever, the fact is if you dont have a killer eyelashes, no mascara can achieve the ultimate eyelashes you so desire, but well the only answer is of course the fake eyelashes la!

I hope we do this often! It felt so relaxing you know. I sometimes forget that we all have grown up and still thought that we were 15 or 16. Mind you, these were the same ladies i grew up my teenage years with in secondary school, when they were rebellious girls who defied many school rules! Mischevious things that they had done! The plentiful of 'steady' boyfriends, detentions, and many more la,hehe let's not get too detailed about the past..

**Can i still grow up and remain as a bubbly child inside..?

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By the way, i cant help posting this photo up! Done by Miss Suzy herself!!!




Loud Gasp!!We do have what it takes kan kan..?!Muahahaa..So kelakar ok Su!

Ok Isly commented that i had forgotten to change my age under my intro. Honestly, i knew la,I wanted it to remain 21 for a bit longer before adjustment should be made. Heh, yes im in some kind of 'age-denial'!The digit behind my number 2 is changing so soon i notice and i could barely keep up with it..sigh..

So since i got to change the number, i might as well change my template. The white is getting dull aint it?Hehe..

Nothing extravagant about this layout, i love it due to its simplicity (yet again!).
How could you not adore the butterflies and flowers image? Thanks ZootsDesign!

Subconsciously psychics can be really 'freaking-ly and horny-ly'(*quoted by Suzy eh,i borrow) funny sometimes!

How it was supposed to be just Suzy and me because 'we-are-bored-its-friday-night' turned out to be Suzy and me but with added bonus Isly which happened because 'we-are-bored-its-friday-night-and-three's-a-company-was-better-than-two's'.

And so i thought,well it could not have been more perfect and coincidental that this last minute meet up could actually be another riot session. BUT NO! Isly obviously was up to her usual 'im-cool-and-aloof-but-i-got-something-up-my-sleeve', oh of course Suzy and myself being a cancerian and all immediately got our maternal instinct kicked up, sensing that something was just not right with Isly judging from the way she replied our sms-es, it was cryptic and very confusing. Instantly being cancerians, our tendency to be worrisome flared up. Both actually assumed that Isly wasnt just herself and that maybe she was depressed over something and her 'urgent-ness' to meet although she complained that she was not at her best moods. Plus the fact that the stipulated location of meeting her was just not right. We were trying to be Robert Langdon and Sophie Neveu deciphering the code that Isly had pushed under our nose .

Suzy and myself rushed to meet her there 'of-all-places', BUT NO! There she was sitting cross-legged nonchanlant and oblivious to her surroundings reading i REPEAT reading STRAITS TIMES at almost 9pm eh! Then again we wont deny that indeed she looked worn out. Without wasting any time, Suzy and myself started fussing over Isly asking the necessary until Isly lifted up her STRAITS TIMES and revealed what was underneath, and Suzy 'the-one-with-the-perfect-eyesight' saw it first and let out a delighted shrieked, i took another 3 seconds to react before letting out my own delighted shrieked! It was so obvious and 'transparent' the wrapped items in the paper bag belongs to!I like eh babe!!!Macam so romantic like that! If you keep this coming i assure you my mindset over 'loathe-men-but-cant-live-without-them' will be changed to 'loathe-men-and-can-live-without-them' permanently!!But seriously i was over my 'birth-day' since it was almost a week's past and to receive a gift from you unexpected in the most sweetest gesture really teared me okay darling!

Proceed to Civic Mac'd *roll eyes* where else?? I have to admit Woodlands is a very mundane place to hang out. Anyways it wasnt just the 3 of us,A-an who was working that night managed to join us for a chat! And why the hell we did not took his photo eh Suzy and Isly?? As predicted it was a riot session, how is it possible that we 3 ladies got too much of a laughing gas?!?!! Ketawa ketawa riang aje! Super lame and corny jokes are the best eh! I swear my tummy was on the verge of bursting tau!!

So Isly baby! thank you for the gift hokay?!i lup lup it so very much! Just could not stop bragging it to my mama you know! And that bag is going to match one of my raya outfit this year!!So funkay tau!!!Trust me i even spot a pair of heels semalam to go with the get-up!!!You are my insanely beautifully self-appointed shrink!!You just think of everything! Oh yes even if you got me that purple lacy bra, its not crude at all,i would have smooch you senseless!!Darn i sound like a gay already!


The woman and me. The words written on the envelope touched me deep

"You are the life of our party,
We crave your hugs,opinions,laughs & approval
You are the purple princess others hate but whom we so adore :)"

Yeps smiley face included! Haizz it felt great reading these kind of things from your friends who believe you matter to them..
And by the way! it felt darn good eh you all acknowledge me as a princess still!
My mama said crap!


Unwrapping the gift


Yay!! Another new bag y'all!


Altogether! Suzy got Miss Sixty perfume set from Isly, lucky bitch too! It seems its her second perfume gift!


Well just a silly shot before we part! hehee

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Speaking of bags, this year so far i got another 3 new spanking bags to add to my ever growing collection!


Orange weave basket bag by Suzy! I just love the color of the bag! So bold!
Brown bag with my name personalised by Azfidah! So cute and exclusive since its handmade and all im sure im the only one who has this,dhuh!!
Green bag by Isly! Yes this twin shrink of mine just know that my color of the month is green la! I have that habit you see, like last month it was brown, like now my current eyecandy is anything green!

I got a laundry bag from ikea for just $7.90 but not to put my dirty laundry but all my bags inside!! I gave up putting it all in a drawer or storage boxes. This works better actually! So convenient! Kinda fun, i mean when i need to decide which bag to don on that day i simply rummage through the laundry bag, malas but well the euphoric feeling is similar to rummaging through good findings in a wagon at a shopping mall la!


The laundry 'bags' holder..hehe



So easy!

So yeps the contra of this is that, everyone knows my addiction towards bags, and the fact that i got 3 more, im sure i need another laundry bag soon! Yikes!

I had so so much fun last Saturday that it took me approximately 5 days to recover from the hangover! And it took me this long to update! No worries it wasnt the consumption of alcohol that took me 5 days to be okay but merely the hangover of recuperating from the bountiful of having uncensored fun! We ought to be arrested with the ruckus we created!


The formal, cake-cutting and candle blowing for the July-ians, which actually took Suzy and myself offguard, since we were in the washroom and when we came back to the table we were greeted by this pleasant surprise! It was splendid and i was speechless eh!


This has got to be ONE of the many cakes that i will have in my lifetime that will be treasured simply because it was home baked by Azfidah! And it tastes as good!


1) Suzy in her priceless expression, obviously looking overwhelmed.
2) Suzy and myself with our individual gift from Azfidah.
3) It's official, ive been crowned as a Princess that night (by Siti & Zul), hmm
wait till i have my own car, hehee
4) Just me again,random pose. Hey, its my birthday im allowed to take as many random pose as much as i want!



1) Suzy looking absolutely delighted just because she got the 'Diva' and i got to
settle for 'princess'. Bear in mind Suzy darling, 'Princess' is royalty and well
'Diva' is after all just a diva *Lis looking nonchalant as she files her claws!*.
hmm wait till Suzy has her own car, hehee
2) Lis Gone Wild, not that she had a choice. They like it rough and purposely forced her to lick off the chocolate cream that had been smudged on her 'Princess' plate.It was humiliating for this newly-crowned Princess, oh the nerve!!!


1) Suzy and Myself just feeling plain lucky


For the obvious reasons, we all enjoyed taking group shots!! Especially the ladies la, the guys well they were merely playing along until enough is enough.


I think this has got to be my favourite shot, thank you Isly! I didnt even recalled posing for this one?! Indeed with all the formal happy birthday song,cake and candles blowing, i felt a surged of melancholy-ness and it finally felt that i have turned 22! Gosh has it been that long?

Anyways, much love to you guys who came that night at Lau Pa Sat. Though it wasnt the exact gathering we had imagined who could have predicted that this simple dinner could turned out to be massive in its own way! The jokes that never stopped even until we part, the food that was being pushed around especially upon seeing Isly enjoying the cockles by herself still lookin graceful and that you treated us the Satay! Suzy for the utmost romantic gesture for presenting me the bag that i actually picked unknowingly! Azfidah you really surprised me not only did she look absolutely lovely but the fact that she baked the cake with love and also the thoughtful gift which she actually sewed herself!! She sewed a bag for Suzy and me with our names embroided ok,that actually did it! I was truly moved that you actually went to such length (even some of my fav people never done that before sadly!). Siti and Zul for being so creative in presenting our gifts! I have to admit Suzy has the perfect eyesight la..haizz! Hence, i dont know saying thanks is suffice to summarise all the enjoyment i had that night! From the bottom of my heart, my big thanks to all of you and yes i guessed it was fun and emotional at the same time that even Yazif text us all! So we all have bonded so close despite the years that we had lost and i promised to each and one of you, that this is one friendship i will never give up :)

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On another note, i will love to say my thanks to Mr.LMT as well! For the JB supper treat, seafood platter dinner at Manhattan Fish Market on the eve of my birthday(which was actually supposed to be my treat) and for being a good companion while watching Superman (now how is it fair for a man like Brandon Routh to have such flawless skin, that makes every woman pale in comparison?)and the ultimate orgasmic experience of given the chance to caress Salina the nikon D70s (why do guys name their gadgets eh by the way?although heh i is the one who suggested Salina when he was thinking of a name. Salina is one of his favourite read), for the trip to Mustafa and another late supper at Jln Kayu, plus im so so so grateful to you for accompanying me to Sim Lim the other day? I know the day doesnt actually turn out the way its supposed to be, and it's my bad la. Hoping that you are no longer sore about the incident okay mister? And yes i live at an ulu location (according to you) so i apologise if its a tad bit troublesome, nonetheless i thank you for the each time you had sent me home safe and sound.

Looking back, wah we had done quite a lot in just a week didnt we?

Finally to top it off i end this entry wit my favourite shot from his Salina that he took recently


Well it's the 'purplek' orchid that did it la! *Lis feeling flirtatious and flips her hair back* So Mr LMT, were you thinking of me when you took this shot??

I spent the morning of my birthday making pancakes for breakfast for the family,
Which was upon their request,can you imagine that..?? And here i was expecting my own breakfast in bed..oh well tough luck :(

Anyways friday had been a low-key affair for me but nonetheless very meaningful.
No there wasnt any surprise or a big bang celebration. My first half of the day was with the family. Then later in the evening i had a date. Yeps i had a date, but nothing of the romantic sort (though that could had been wonderful..sigh..), it was a date with someone i care and love for almost a decade. It could not have been more special then it was that night. Thank you Elfy for meeting me despite the exhaustion and weariness of having a busy day at work, just to see the same old face heh.

Yes so you were in a hurry that you had forgotten to bring my birthday gift with you but your thoughtfulness won me over babe! Presenting me a flower to compensate your forgetfulness was just too sweet, and the fact that you smother me with plenty of kisses and a big hug as well as holding hands afterwards were attracting too much attention from stangers that could only summarise one thing when they looked at us! But who cares, i was over the moon! Just because i adore what was given to me and that it was irony the flower actually matches my top!?

So we simply spent the night wandering around town (believe it or not its been awhile since ive been to Orchard)looking through the latest collections of what fashion has to offer, sitting together on one bench in Borders each indulging themselves with their own personal interest, Elfy lost herself browsing through fashion and arts books while i submerged myself in photography books.
And then it was a simple dinner at Pastamania, we did the usual bonding and exchanging opinions on certain things. I know,to some this sounds kinda boring and lame way to celebrate your bithday but hey i beg to differ, i believed Elfy had given me a wonderful gift without realising it. She had given me quality time to spend it with her. You dont know how rare it has been for us to meet nowadays. We parted with our friendship somehow strengthen, having much respect for one another as well as the love for our friendship still pretty much intact.

What moved me most was when she replied to my sms which express my gratefulness to her for being there for me that night, she said it was her utmost pleasure and that she loves our friendship so much that no matter how far away we will be from each other,i'll still be in her mind wishing for my well being. Now how often can one receives messages with much sincerity..?Well i did!

Once again, i would like to say my gratitude towards you for being a friend who will always be there for me, rain or shine. I love you much woman!

Im sorry if this entry sounds very mushy to your liking. But this entry is dedicated towards her and telling her exactly how much she means to me is not to be taken lightly especially after all the things she had done and stood by me all these years.





p/s: thanks to all for the birthday wishes that kept streaming in throughout the day, the fact that i was in your thoughts made my day a bit more beautiful than usual :)

So today i am 22.
Life progresses rapidly and before you know it,
It has been another year.

Reminiscent of my past birthday memories, what was always compulsory was the usual shenanigans and whatnots of having a kick-ass birthday parties. This was due to the fact that my conclusions on birthdays had always been 'the balloons-the cake-the presents'.

But this has changed, no i still do enjoy birthday celebrations (who wouldn't? the grinch perhaps?)but what i crave now is more of a mellow celebratory. Now i can do without the balloons, cake will be wonderful and presents ermmm...ok who am i kidding right?

Being in the comfort of your own close family members and friends on your birthday is more than enough to make this day worth your while. See, we all are entitle to feel happy once a year on this day. Try to avoid sadness, anger or any negative karma if you may.

As much as i still do not feel like ive aged a year older, i know for sure that my twenties will be over even before i can say 'Old'. From that aspect, i feel spooked.
Instead of dwelling about the past and reflecting the blahs and yadaas of how mature i have become and that rough experiences was the cause, or the abouts of beautiful and precious things that has occurred. I prefer to look forward now, too much time was consumed on the past. I wonder the years ahead, hoping that i'll reach my stability soon career-wise, giving my family a good life which they rightly deserve. They are my priority. And also the bits and pieces of my own dreams being achieved, sometimes how ridiculous it may be. I want to reach a point of my life whereby i can obtain the luxury and leisure with my own labour, not resorting through other means (ie; family or say a boyfriend). Besides these, i hope staying positive and peace-loving will help me go through any hellish traumas ahead, which im sure will happen one too many times in the future. This is what you call Life, no one says it's gonna be easy nor will it be like a bed of roses.

Oh and hey of course im still holding on to my little girl's dream of being struck by the cupid and live happily ever after. But i guess now, falling for Prince Charming or the Knight in Shining Armour has got to be more realistic. Having failed relationships in the past, i hope not to make the same mistakes again. With them, i know they were my guide that prepares me to final fulfillment eventually, someone who is better and right for me, someone who will define my 'ultimate contentment' in every sense of the word. Any by that 'ultimate contentment', he doesnt have to be that for everyone to notice, he will be just that for my very own eyes and yes even with his shortcomings. He will be my very own epitome of a perfect man not for you, them or anyone but only me.

The hunt is still on for this man, or will he hunt for me? Either way whom comes first does not matter,we all know fate and destiny plays apart so as long as its L-O-V-E come beckoning, i do hope i'll be ready then to welcome without any doubts, free of remorse for the past and finally knowing that the heart has heal.

With all these said (darn it's by far the lengthy-iest entry ive written in recent weeks or so?) im putting on a song that seems apt for this birthday lady who dreams of endless fairy tales as her escapade from trouble in paradise.

Saat ku tiba di tidur malamku, kurasa
Ku 'kan menjelma menjadi putri tidur, kurasa
'Kan datang seorang pangeran yang mengecup bibirku
Dan dia membawaku dalam dunia
Mimpi indah tak bertepi

Memberi semua cinta
Yang akan abadi 'tuk s'lama-lamanya
Memberi semua damai
Tanpa kusadari terjerat dalam cerita
Andaikan semua tak cuma hanya dalam mimpi

Bila ku terjaga di tidur malamku, kuingin
Pejamkan mata kembalikan mimpiku, kuingin
Berada di ujung pelangi yang melintasi bumi
Dan ku dapatkan senyuman sang bulan
Dan tawanya bintang-bintang

~Putri Tidur by Yunika~



Its not too much to end this with me wishing myself a joyous 'Happy 22nd Birthday'.
I believe i deserved so :)
Have a great weekend to all!

The boy who captured my heart since more then a year and half back, and to this day it still has remained that way..

Hold your horses people! Its just my nephew!



He who has learned to walk, eat (like a lot!), and talk (instructing orders is his forte by the way), have become one very mischevious boy!

And one thing that he inherited from this 'gorgeous' aunt of his is he simply loves reading books. Now as much as that sounds endearing it can get on my nerves sometimes because he'll be insisting for us to read the story over and over again, and then my patience will wane and it can get very annoying!

But when he's all cuddled up like an angel like the photo below, the thought of being angry just subside instantly..





So yeps, this cheeky boy who happen to be so adorable can easily get away with murder i tell ya! This photo says it all! Now everyone say 'awwww..',hehe

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Anyways im still breathing and alive,albeit the lack of updates.

Life is wonderful,the usual.

Oh and yeah our short film was being showcased the other day at Substation. The feeling of having seen your effort shown on a big screen was priceless! My heart was thumping very rapidly, i sweat just thinking if the other audience will jeered or applaud. But when the credits roll in and people applaud, it was just amazing.

Besides that i finally got to meet one of my lovely idiots yesterday, its been awhile! And i had miss them terribly! But i was so glad that i got to meet elfy!
So we had our dinner date, the catching-up time aka bitching session,and our fare share of doing our bit of retail theraphy but how strange though that i did not splurge?! Like hello!! Lis did not succumb to impulsive purchases! It was so weird that i pushed myself at times to get something out of the many many shops! In the end all i came home with was an eye cream that im in need desperately (dark circles equates to plain ugliness) and yeah a box of cakes requested by mama, and that's about it! Funny how this GSS thingy had not really whetted my cravings for my constant desire of attaining self-satisfaction towards one of my favourite passion,shopping.


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By the way congrats to Italy for winnning the world cup despite the controversy issue of Zidane getting the red card. It was very uncalled for and he didnt deserve it on his part. But ..but its all good la since ive won this bet against Mr LMT! I risked myself and rooted for Italy. Since the previous other matches it was such a letdown for me and i lost my bet against him! Yes yes, gambling and betting is not good la but hey in good spirits of the event, its kinda exciting you know. Thus now, to each needs to settle their losses in due time!

Heh i got mine first already. Thanks Mr LMT, you've been a good sport!

This may sound offhanded

But sometimes i just welcome being tired
I love the fact that my body is aching
I love the fact that consuming 'mugs' of caffeine can be refreshing (*not the 3 in 1 kind,believe me it never work and the taste is bland)
I love the fact that i'm away from home for more than 14hours
I love the fact that i'll be looking all shagged and looking good became secondary
I love the fact that my brain requires a lot of tweaking, pricking and cracking

And i love the fact that when ive reached home, i can still smile and with my energy almost drained, i believed i had a smashing hell of a good day!

I know it sounds unlogical and beyond comprehension, how can anyone enjoy being tired?
Well that's me for you :)

Oh the code work here is 'sometimes' by the way!
Like most of you,im tired of being tired too like 70% of the time! See how nonsensical i can be?

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I just cannot believe that i got emotional over Argentina vs Germany soccer match,

Blame it on my bet with Mr.LMT (*Mr Lelaki Melayu Terakhir),or i wouldn't have bothered even watching the 2nd half of the game since nothing spectacular happened in the first half. Lo and behold all the actions started to unfold in the second half. I cheered, i cursed then lastly i teared, well i was rooting for Argentina.

And although im not much of a World Cup fan, and my opinion does not even make sense,i like that Argentina with not much of eye candy to look at and not even lucky in the height department (i notice most of the guys are short,something i have in common with them), they played well with gutso even when things were so obvious that it wasnt exactly fair game. Without knowing i like this team and in 4 years to come,my bet will still be on Argentina. There you go i have my favourite team already!

So Mr.LMT, is it still Swensons? Im allowed to still negotiate this matter with you do i?? I know i know stop it! And wipe that smirk off your face, that pretty much said 'I told you Germany will win'.