This is almost insane to define..

Despite whatever madness is swirling around my life,

It is almost too good to be true after a really long drought,I never could have been happier that the rain is falling harsh and hard on my skin.

Or it could also be this way; after a long bout of the dark gloomy clouds, I see the ray of light at the end of the horizon.

Either way due to this, I have been smiling silly of late.

I have finally met a knight. Ermm not the typical knight in shining armor but I have decided that in honor of the recent blockbuster which also happened to be our current favourite movie.

He shall be refer as my dark knight.

Hell I never felt this warm and fuzzy in a long time. I am feeling so smug that I can feel so warm and fuzzy in my own right. It feels good to know now that I have someone to look forward and rant my exhaustion of my daily mayhem and he is there to pick up my call. Knowing that he never lets me down whenever I call is 'hope'. Listening to him vent his frustation of his own daily mayhem is music to my ears. And hearing him frown as he voice his concern for my well being is comforting.

Even now, when I look at other couples walked down the same street as me who only have eyes for no one else but their other half, smiling and holding hands. It hit me, as I turned to my side and smile secretly when I looked down at my hands with his. No longer do I feel the longing to hold someone's hand.

He wasn't the Knight in shining armor which I had hope for all along. Or perhaps a perfect romeo I hope to save my life. But it was this dark knight who came unexpectedly and is something else altogether.

Hey all, bottomline is I once wrote I wanted to be a someone not a something in a man's life. Without being too force and clingy, a man who admits he is no good with words shows through his gestures that at this moment I am his someone in his life.

This entry is mushy and corny by my standards. So mushy that I feel all spooky creeping up my toes. But of course, in a good way kinda spooky. Yes, the dark knight makes me feel all spooky and excited at the same time instead of the typical butterflies fluttering in my tummy. This may not make sense to you but it is ok as long as it make perfectly sense to me :)

p/s: Now, it is not my fault that the Photoshop quit on me while I was resizing the photos!! I promise again I will post it the on the next one ;)

So another year come and go..
Here I am for the 4th year sharing with you that I have turned a year older..
I am 24.

If last year this was what I wrote,

"Nonetheless thanks to the lovely souls who outdo certain things for me to feel really special this year, your gratitude shall be appreciated and cherished for long time to come :) I am still stunned when I think about the several surprises turned up for me.."

Let it be known to those who put so much effort for making me feel special this year my countless thank yous and hugs could not describe how I really felt. And as I was going through the beautiful presents which I got this year, I realised all of them have one thing in common. All of them were gifts from your heart, each and every single one of them were your thoughts which depicts me. I could not feel more blessed than I already am! It means a lot to know how well you apprehend my personality.

Especially one in particular, never knew within the short span period of time that we know each other he gave me something that I know I will be selfish about it. It warms my heart that he knew, he listened, he had observed. It was a gift that came with much thought and just like that he won me over.

See I am this corny and easy to please hehe ;)

Anyways, if you dear reader are wondering how personal the above paragraph sounded and your presumption gets the best of you, well let me clear your doubt that my 24th was extra special this year with the existence of a wonderful man. I find it hard to believe myself :)

Everything is still very new. I have been slapping myself silly to realise this is happening for real, even to the extent of pinching myself harder by changing my status in Friendster and Facebook. Needless to say it created a ruckus amongst my friends who actually noticed and got even more excited then me. Thank you for sharing my happiness as you would with my woes.

Like I said everything is still new and I do not want to jeopardize what I have. So let's hope and cheers to my new beginning :)

Once again, thank you to those who have made me even special this year through the countless surprises (which leave me numb with tears in the end), beautiful gifts and even your messages through online and my mobile and even to those who came to me personally to tell me. It means a lot that despite your busy schedules you took your time to wish me, this leaves me humble to know my existence means something to you.

p/s: Alrite guys I know I promised! Rest assured the photos which had captured my special moments will be updated soon by the next entry. Heh I needed this one to be a bit emotional before I deliberate the rest. Ermm sort of hehe.

Turned a year older a few days ago :)
Lovely as it is, can't help thinking that my life is moving at a breakneck speed..

And if you feel like me too you will appreciate how poignant this song is.
I call it my 24th Birthday theme song.
Heh Enjoy :)

Rushing and racing and running in circles
Moving so fast I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding chaotic
Pace of the world I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might disappear
In the blur of fast forward I falter again
Forgetting to breathe
I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Pass me while I wasn't paying attention
Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart

Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
Cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flies by
I need you to slow me down

Just show me
I need you to slow me down
Slow me down
Slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it
Just need to breathe
Somebody please
Slow me down

~ Slow Me Down by Emmy Rossum~

After spending so much time browsing through pretty dresses from Matthew Williamson, Balenciaga, Chloe, Alexander Mcqueen among others, I am left brokenhearted because I can never afford those, period. Sigh, like seriously maybe I should learn how to sew. And when I master that, I can replicate a certain design and save moolahs while at it.

But of course, I am just playing mind games with myself. Until then, I think I will have to rely on a seamstress to help me out. One day okay one day I will put mama's sewing good-for-nothing machine (because she is also clueless about sewing) to good use.

Anyways, much love to you ladies. Elfy and Yaya finally received their outstanding gifts from us since the order did not reached in time for their Birthday picnic.




I miss you babes so glad we met up and catch up. I mean like literally we took turns round the table and each of us gave a brief summary of what's going on in our lives. Who could have thought eh that being an adult is hard work?

Ouh, Baidah! I just have to steal a photo (or two actually heh) from you. Ha ha, i think my excitement for cam whoring is slowly depleting. Hence, my lack of pictorial updates either here, my friendster and facebook. Come to think of it, I am turning into such a bore. My level of energy can barely sustain after 8pm most days I tell you.