Yes i change my blog template, been wanting to do this,
New 'old' room so why not refresh my template here as well kan.
Deciding on this template takes consideration as well hahaa, it goes well with
my new 'old' room which is still undone.
I like this template, simple and easy on the eye and plus i change
my tagboard using the flashboard now.. Looks cool i think.
Heh.
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But as refreshing as this looks, ive been worrying the whole day today..
Ever since the demise of nenek elder sister, nenek dont look well. She's grieving over her sister. She never said it loud but well my aunt notice the change in her.
And today nenek has been vomitting non-stop, to us this is not normal. Nenek have never been sick, well occasional leg pain and flu is normal but seeing her so weak and frail for the first time, shook me badly.
Seeing her trembling after she vomits, her pained look as she struggles to control herself and until she cannot take it.
And although i have always heard friends of mine shared their stories over caring for their sick grandparents, it never occured to me that i will have hands on to it, mopping the floor today after she vomits from her room and all the way to the kitchen. Now im not complaining but i just cannot accept that nenek was so weak today to not even control herself before she reaches the toilet, i took for granted all this while that she has always been strong. Although she's almost 80, i have always been so proud of her because at this age she is still capable of most things than people of her age are not able too..
As much i'm not trying to be ignorant, i know shes getting older and she's always saying that she wont be long anymore, today i see her in a different light, ive realised she has indeed gotten old and in need.
Every ramadhan nenek never failed to bake her signature pineapple tarts and makmurs that all her family members simple love, this year for the first time after all these years she wont be making it. Mama said 'nenek dah tak kuat, i want her to rest', i was sulking because to me without getting to smell the aroma of her baking the kueh something is amiss during ramadhan. But then again when i saw her today, i have to agree i just want her to sit back and rest.
Nenek get well soon, i pray for you.
New 'old' room so why not refresh my template here as well kan.
Deciding on this template takes consideration as well hahaa, it goes well with
my new 'old' room which is still undone.
I like this template, simple and easy on the eye and plus i change
my tagboard using the flashboard now.. Looks cool i think.
Heh.
***********
But as refreshing as this looks, ive been worrying the whole day today..
Ever since the demise of nenek elder sister, nenek dont look well. She's grieving over her sister. She never said it loud but well my aunt notice the change in her.
And today nenek has been vomitting non-stop, to us this is not normal. Nenek have never been sick, well occasional leg pain and flu is normal but seeing her so weak and frail for the first time, shook me badly.
Seeing her trembling after she vomits, her pained look as she struggles to control herself and until she cannot take it.
And although i have always heard friends of mine shared their stories over caring for their sick grandparents, it never occured to me that i will have hands on to it, mopping the floor today after she vomits from her room and all the way to the kitchen. Now im not complaining but i just cannot accept that nenek was so weak today to not even control herself before she reaches the toilet, i took for granted all this while that she has always been strong. Although she's almost 80, i have always been so proud of her because at this age she is still capable of most things than people of her age are not able too..
As much i'm not trying to be ignorant, i know shes getting older and she's always saying that she wont be long anymore, today i see her in a different light, ive realised she has indeed gotten old and in need.
Every ramadhan nenek never failed to bake her signature pineapple tarts and makmurs that all her family members simple love, this year for the first time after all these years she wont be making it. Mama said 'nenek dah tak kuat, i want her to rest', i was sulking because to me without getting to smell the aroma of her baking the kueh something is amiss during ramadhan. But then again when i saw her today, i have to agree i just want her to sit back and rest.
Nenek get well soon, i pray for you.
Yours Truly Lis @ 11:06 PM
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