So today i am 22.
Life progresses rapidly and before you know it,
It has been another year.

Reminiscent of my past birthday memories, what was always compulsory was the usual shenanigans and whatnots of having a kick-ass birthday parties. This was due to the fact that my conclusions on birthdays had always been 'the balloons-the cake-the presents'.

But this has changed, no i still do enjoy birthday celebrations (who wouldn't? the grinch perhaps?)but what i crave now is more of a mellow celebratory. Now i can do without the balloons, cake will be wonderful and presents ermmm...ok who am i kidding right?

Being in the comfort of your own close family members and friends on your birthday is more than enough to make this day worth your while. See, we all are entitle to feel happy once a year on this day. Try to avoid sadness, anger or any negative karma if you may.

As much as i still do not feel like ive aged a year older, i know for sure that my twenties will be over even before i can say 'Old'. From that aspect, i feel spooked.
Instead of dwelling about the past and reflecting the blahs and yadaas of how mature i have become and that rough experiences was the cause, or the abouts of beautiful and precious things that has occurred. I prefer to look forward now, too much time was consumed on the past. I wonder the years ahead, hoping that i'll reach my stability soon career-wise, giving my family a good life which they rightly deserve. They are my priority. And also the bits and pieces of my own dreams being achieved, sometimes how ridiculous it may be. I want to reach a point of my life whereby i can obtain the luxury and leisure with my own labour, not resorting through other means (ie; family or say a boyfriend). Besides these, i hope staying positive and peace-loving will help me go through any hellish traumas ahead, which im sure will happen one too many times in the future. This is what you call Life, no one says it's gonna be easy nor will it be like a bed of roses.

Oh and hey of course im still holding on to my little girl's dream of being struck by the cupid and live happily ever after. But i guess now, falling for Prince Charming or the Knight in Shining Armour has got to be more realistic. Having failed relationships in the past, i hope not to make the same mistakes again. With them, i know they were my guide that prepares me to final fulfillment eventually, someone who is better and right for me, someone who will define my 'ultimate contentment' in every sense of the word. Any by that 'ultimate contentment', he doesnt have to be that for everyone to notice, he will be just that for my very own eyes and yes even with his shortcomings. He will be my very own epitome of a perfect man not for you, them or anyone but only me.

The hunt is still on for this man, or will he hunt for me? Either way whom comes first does not matter,we all know fate and destiny plays apart so as long as its L-O-V-E come beckoning, i do hope i'll be ready then to welcome without any doubts, free of remorse for the past and finally knowing that the heart has heal.

With all these said (darn it's by far the lengthy-iest entry ive written in recent weeks or so?) im putting on a song that seems apt for this birthday lady who dreams of endless fairy tales as her escapade from trouble in paradise.

Saat ku tiba di tidur malamku, kurasa
Ku 'kan menjelma menjadi putri tidur, kurasa
'Kan datang seorang pangeran yang mengecup bibirku
Dan dia membawaku dalam dunia
Mimpi indah tak bertepi

Memberi semua cinta
Yang akan abadi 'tuk s'lama-lamanya
Memberi semua damai
Tanpa kusadari terjerat dalam cerita
Andaikan semua tak cuma hanya dalam mimpi

Bila ku terjaga di tidur malamku, kuingin
Pejamkan mata kembalikan mimpiku, kuingin
Berada di ujung pelangi yang melintasi bumi
Dan ku dapatkan senyuman sang bulan
Dan tawanya bintang-bintang

~Putri Tidur by Yunika~



Its not too much to end this with me wishing myself a joyous 'Happy 22nd Birthday'.
I believe i deserved so :)
Have a great weekend to all!