My heart teared when mama mention something significant that i wish i wasnt me

I teared just thinking what took you so long to realise that you had lost someone who 'could have been the one' who loves you for just the way you are

I teared watching Grey's Anatomy episode tonight, it was really heartwrenching

I teared thinking about my emotional woes

If i have the power to choose not to feel, i would..Life will not be so
complicated..I hate feelin vulnerable and letting it control over my feelings

Because sometimes it is so tiring and tedious to feel what you feel..

Dont you think so..?

Ok is it me or my mood swings is getting the best of me this particular month?

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I found this song whilst in youtube.com watching replays of grey's anatomy,

Lover All Alone by Clay Aiken

Maybe I've convince myself
I've really been in love
And I've been wrong along

For all I know the feeling and the picture
That I've tried so hard to find
Isn't mine

Could be it's all just a waiting game
Want to share my everything

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
This love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love

Picking up the pieces makes me wonder
If I only build it all to watch it fall
The faster it can go away it means
The less of me is gone to stay
And I'm okay

But lonesome tomorrow comes anyway
I'm alone for another day, another day

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
That this love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love

And on my own it's hard
To tell my heart it'll be alright
That this love it holds
Will one day find a home
As hard as love can be
It's harder still it seems
To be a lover all alone without love
A lover all alone without love

Maybe I've convince myself
I've really been in love
but I've been wrong along