I've been in turmoil for the last few days (and i am still..)
Ok so ive decided that if love is true in every sense of the word,
It will come back..it will i noe

Im grateful to know i have frens who truly cares (and not frens who condemns you to stay away from someone you love..NO. real frens dun tell you to do dat they would ask you to follow your heart..)

Yes,honestly even right now i am still feelin overwhelm by the emotional support i receive from these wonderful frens..They hav been gentle enough to my feelins, firm enuf to tell me to wake up, but yet honest enuf to tell me dat its still not wrong to still love 'him' and also to remind me to live my life again..

I wont say i hav move on, nope i hav not
There's no remedy to cure the pain im feelin ..'yet'
Therefore, i need to be emotionally strong again..i dun noe if will move on eventually bcos only time will tell and sumtimes you wont move on bcos of the things left unsaid (rite ryehan?u agree wit me on dis i noe ;))

Anyways,had a great nite..it was splendidly spent!
It felt great to laugh again :)

Met Kin and Ryehan first, so we decided to chill at Cavana, haha it was a blast la!
How can we not! d bloody flat screen plasma tv there was playin BACKSTREET BOYS music videos frm their first album to their latest last album..
Hehee gosh the three of us were giggling like we were 16! To reminisce the days when we goin 'ga-ga' over BSB and YES we sang along to their songs like; 'I never break ur heart','As long as u love me','Quit playing games with my heart','Get down' juz to name a few..haha so over-rated n yeah ppl at d nxt table gav a few glance at us but heck who cares!!
Well then Baidah came along,so more reminisce and singing along..gushin who's who fav BSB member..haha come on we all hav to admit they r a 'phenomenon' rite!we thought how 'kentalan' we were back then it brought smiles to our face,i guess life was not as complicated as it is now..

As we BINGE(!) on cakes and nachos! Haizz sinfully delicious ok!




All of us start to open up our wounds, on being love hurt..
In a way, thrs alot of similarities between us, it makes me feel easier to share what im goin thru knowin that im not as 'pathetic-desperate-foolish-lovesick' as i assume i was.. Thanx ladies for d female bonding session, it was simply wonderful and yes maybe we shud form a movement against MEN breaking hearts..??



n i notice i look silly here gritting my teeth,not prepared but watever!

Yazif and Azfidah join us after dat,it was madness! haha we cant stop laughin! oh yeah frm cavana we went over to Civic centre MacD's to chill..Ryehan and Yazif were constantly arguing which provide us to laugh even more!!haha yeah Ryehan was havin a gd time poking fun at Zif's dad who happen to be her mly teacher back in sec sch..

It was amazing how we click and laugh away when the fact that sum of them hav met for the first time..like i said it was madness to the max! Yazif thax for driving us home yah!

Gosh after tonite meet up i felt exhilarated and hype up..watever im feelin now i juz want to keep d momentum dis way,i dun want to go home, scares me knowing that i will dwell abt 'him' again..oh well he dun care anyway probably has a new 'bitch' to worry abt..sheeshh haizz if only i stop loving him..

By the way heres a quote abt love which i decided i will put at d end of evry entry juz so to remind myself that love is not all hateful:

Love is strong yet delicate
It can be broken
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

-Stephen Packer-