The sinking feeling which I feel was somehow strange but not at all foreign as to why I feel this way...

I shouldn't.. I know

For this, im seeing myself starting to build up a wall around me all over again.,Ive let you in too far, the slightest notion of knowing something I wasnt suppose to give a hoot about did a reverse on my emotional self

Since you asked and I tell you I am jealous, what are the odds of you taking it seriously..?

I foresee it as zilch...

Maybe its time to make a decision with mind over heart.

But then again I need to drop a humongous big stone on your head to get you to understand what I'm trying to say.. Reality bites guys..it does painfully.