I was beaming with pleasure when i got home last Sunday night late,mama got me 2 ramli burgers like i requested (she reacted with horror when i asked her to buy 2 not 1)since i cant join the family for dinner. I cant help it that i had not had anything at all the entire day and the sponsored food was too bland for my taste. And let me tell you i absolutely 'love love' Ramli Burgers! Its the best thing kan, dont you think so?? Loaded with beef/chicken patties, top with cheese,mayonaise, bbq sauce, covered in omelette, with additional cabbage and chilli sauce in between sesame buns! It's so sinfully delicious, for only $2.50!! Ramli Burger or Mcdonald's? I pick Ramli burger anytime! This what happens when you have a pasar malam next to causeway point! The tantalising aroma just gets to you!


By the way, in the end i just ate 1 because the mama and sister had the other one for breakfast.

The best thing that i saw when i entered my room was how very neat it had became! I have a habit you see, once i start working, i barely had time to prep up my room. I came back to do paperwork, sleep, change then off to work again. Im pretty sure mama who cant stand the sight of papers strewn around my room did me a favour and cleaned the room up. So imagine how delighted i was to see everything was tucked nicely and yes even my vain corner has been arranged accordingly.





But oh well,heh, once i got back home i didnt waste any time tarnishing the clean state of my desk by dumping all my stuff on it which always gets on my mama's nerves.



Anyways production is already over,phew! The most taxing process of filming. Last Sunday was the final shoot. It was quite emotional for me because these were the people that i spent my day and night with for the past few long weeks. Yes, during those peak periods I never had the time to go out and date my friends (whom i miss so so much!) much less a proper conversation. So its natural for me to have created a special bond with a few of my trusted collegues,most of them had been a great help and guide me along on my first major role as a Producer.

Heh yes, i find it hard myself that i was given that position. Trust me, i still choke on myself each time i introduce myself to the clients or potential sponsors. All this while, my experiences was valid as a production assistant although being a Producer is not at all foreign to me because i have hold on to that position for my independent projects. So to do this professionally for tv is a whole different spectrum.

I cannot deny it was a lot of hard work, i stumble on myself on different occasions, which can get me on my wits end pulling my hair to find a resolution especially for last minute deals that did not work out. There were times i told myself that I must be crazy to actually decided this is what i want to do to earn my living. But of course despite all the glitches and dark circles under my eyes which im not so proud of,there were liberating moments when i had successfully managed to handle situations myself. Honestly, i never thought i had it in me. Im still very virgin in this line, and to be able to accomplished something that even surprises your own boss feels so good! All it takes was a little nudge, and it all came tumbling out! Now I am a bit more confident of myself and very thick-skinned i tell you (oh the things we have to do!). One other thing i still find it hard to manage was having your own assistants to instruct, i just feel so wrong having to command others because it was never in my nature to be bossy. It can get too much sometimes :)

Im really grateful to the very person that i least expected to recommend me this post. I have gained a lot out of this and had plenty of fun while doing it. But before all of you assume that it's all fun,if you minus all the shoulder-rubbing with the cool people and celebrities, special excesses to certain things,freebies and discounts its basically just a lot of hard work that can be shitty at times. No joke :)

Well i hope you will excuse this entry and diminish any judgement that you might conclude im bragging. It just feels so surreal that im actually living my dream..
This is what ive always wanted to do after ive discovered my deep admiration for filmaking. I'm only 22 but I never thought things will work out this soon. Indefinitely, im stll very much at the bottom of where i want to be but everyone has got to start somewhere right? And im very much content where i am right now :)

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While most of the time,im on the ball and upbeat..
It can be very vexing and emotionally draining at times,especially if it's not a good day at work. At the end of the day, the one thing that could have made me feel complete is if only I have someone to talk with and vent out all my frustations.
Someone to listen to me whine and comfort me with soothing words. Or someone who would come all the way just to see me just because he misses me and offered me his warms hugs and rain kisses onto me followed by senseless sweet nothings.

You know what.

I miss ending a conversation with "love you's, miss you's" and all the mushy
whathaveyous. Most of all, I miss belonging to someone..

At the rate im burning my energy for work, it left me little to wonder, if this is the path i decide to choose for my life will I be able to find someone who will understand what i do for a living? And if i do, will he eventually accepts that I maybe gone when he wakes up in the morning and only comes back when he has gone to bed? And still love me enough to accept all my other quirkiness..?

Only time will tell ;)

~Rescue Me by Rachel Robinson~

Everytime I close my eyes I'm dreaming
Supernatural
I don't know where I've been all year
On the way to Rome-eo
And back again
And here we go
When I just wanted you to stay

She was born to love him- yeah
She's still waiting for him- up on that ledge above him

Baby, rescue me
From my dreams and from my secret identity
Just wake me
From my sleep
Would you please
Just fall out of the sky and rescue me

All What I want is to be with you
Is that impossible
I only see you disappear
I know you got alot to do, the whole wide world just waits for you
And baby, I'll be waiting, too

He was born to love her- yeah
It's right there to discover
Flying so high above her

Baby, rescue me
From my dreams and from my secret identity
Just wake me
From my sleep
Would you please
just fall out of the sky and rescue me

And the earth will be our home
and the sky our starry dome
and the only super power here
that makes us strong, that kills the fear is
the only super power here is love
and the only super power here is love.

Baby, rescue me
From my dreams and from my secret identity
Just wake me
From my sleep
Would you please
Just fall out of the sky and rescue me

Rescue me

I guess that explains which movie i went to watch :)

I simply enjoy this song.

*I need you to rescue me,
Paint my life in colors of the rainbow,
Show me the joy of what's beautiful
Enchant me with your spell
So that i'll be lost in Love with you forever...*

While all of you are whining about Monday blues, it is the total opposite for me.
My monday today feels like sunday!
Since it had been a long week, im just thankful that i can have my rest today.
Suddenly 8 hours of sleep became a luxury that ive been starving for. Not only that, but ive been feeling unwell too, cough and flu again.

It has been for a few days, but my cough has not gone down yet. Its the dry kind, when your throat will feel super itchy and you will cough till you swear that your throat will split into two. Sunday was the worst of it all, not sleeping the entire night on Saturday because by the time i reached home it was almost 2 in the morning and it was pointless to go and sleep since i got to wake up again at 5am for the day's filming. Yups i forgo it,although i need my dosage of shut-eye moment i could not risk it, for definitely im too tired to wake up on time.

Heh and at the end of my Sunday i was so excited at the prospect that Monday is sorta a free day for me, i actually pampered myself a tad bit before heading home. Obviously, i still had some magical strength in me to do some shopping! Amazing indeed, when initially all i wanted to do was head home as my whole body was aching but i was just glad that the shoot ended way early then expected. It was good to de-stress all by myself, i was happy that i went home with good cheap(!) buys and had an early night by the way!

And today i felt so loved! I miss my mama! It was just endearing today to company her at home, not only she told me to get as much rest as possible but she cooked for me chicken porridge,which is what i needed and no one else can make good porridge except for my mama (for my own tastebud anyway). Darn i can get homesick especially when i miss my mama's cooking. The Dad too has been giving me extra TLC, buying me cough syrups and all, showing his concern, heh my dad gets paranoid if anyone at home falls sick. So tonight, i got another 8 hours of sleep to spare (or more), tomorrow's schedule is up to me but im looking forward for the evening part!

I got a pair of complimentary tickets to watch this at the picturehouse



But high chances that Mr LMT decides that he cant wait to watch this



What will it be? Well i'll let you know .. Either way i do not mind since the complimentary tickets are usable until film runs end.

Ok im getting another one of my cough fits, urrghh! Let me go and nurse this, oh gosh..here it goes again...*coughhh,coughhhhh*!!!

The other day, while i was waiting for my dad's friend for my location scouting appointment of a flat. I was not doing anything in particular,just merely taking in the surroundings on how much it has changed. It was in fact an estate which i spent a couple of years growing up in. Upon looking around, my eyes suddenly was transfixed on something lovely, oh wait lovely is an understatement.
Its the most beautiful thing!

What have i fallen for..? Well its this bugger




If this is what you call love at first sight then i could not agree more..I have not seen it around much on the road,hence i do not think its a common ride yet locally.
Because it felt so surreal that i would bumped into it for 3 straight days in the same color! It must be a sign right?

Dammynnn!! Ok let me make a confession. If i have to get a car, it will be an SUV. I always have a certain fetish for SUVs,they are bulky in size but at the same time it looks sexy in structure and luxurious. And that explains the expensive price tag.
Sigh..So i thought i will probably own an SUV 10 years in the future until i saw him. Yeps ive already named it. His name will be 'Brad'. Well 'Brad' is a mini SUV and very compact although its only 1500cc (i forsee that as a downside) but it's ok,the genius who designed this must have taken in a lot of consideration for the petite woman like me to drive in more comfort, so he created this cutie,i like him already..!

This Brad will be my source of motivation, i will kick my arse off and work hard to make him mine, well hopefully ;), i want the exact same color, this 'green'! But the black and blue looks yummy too! Nevermind the time will come, insyallah..

**The Mini SUV is a collaboration between Daihatsu and Toyota. Therefore the first car is called Toyota Rush (definitely got my adrenalin rush pumping), while its called Be-go for Daihatsu. Yeps ive seen both Rush and Be-go, i mean how is that possible? hehe

Ok i just re-read my earlier entry today and boy did i spot so many grammar mistakes! Not that i have always been good with my grammer or anything.I also realised that my earlier entry 'reads' funny, especially when there were so many 'it' in one sentence. And how i conclude everything sounds very bimbotic as well dont you think? But well i'm not going to be so vain and edit my mistakes this time, just so i feel all human who dont feel the need to sputter good grammar at all times :)

My only valid reason for this was because it was a 'rush' entry and i didnt go over with it again. hehee ok so its not exactly that valid la! but excuse me if you read and thought it funny, just go ahead laugh over it because i did have a good one! Seriously!

Anyways today i learnt why is it very essential for you to be billingual in Mandarin,BIG TIME! I felt so let down because i failed to communicate and it frustates me. Sigh..so you see eventhough how sometimes we complain that this is downright discrimination, i guess sometimes it doesnt hurt to be able to have that extra skill of fluency just so we can accomodate to certain situations like what i had today. At the end of the day, if you have what it takes to communicate i believe you are at an advantage since you are the one who is billingual and they cant speak the universal language.. So i suppose that makes you smarter then them right??no? Oh by the way no 'racially' pun intended :) All is good.

I guess its high time i have my personal lessons with the Dad since he's really really good with his mandarin. Hey he used to live in Hong Kong and Taiwan for a few years ok,so that makes him the smart alec! In fact both of my parents are, the mama is fluent in japanese, ahhh what took me so long to pick an extra foreign lauguage to learn??? But i think it will be more sexy if i can converse in spanish?!! what a turn on! hehee anyways its already Sunday so lets all wind down and relax!! I'll try though!

Popping in here for awhile before i resume back to 'work' mode. See told ya, that it wont be so stagnant! I dont sign off with 'Lis seeking solace' after every entry for nothing you know,this is truly a page when i really need to seek solace. In this case, i just needed a bit of break.

What have i been up to? Well besides scurrying around here and there to get things done and deadlines are around the corner, you can tell i barely have enough time for myself. Though there were random movie watching with Mr LMT. Click was awesome by the way! Initially i was passive about wanting to watch it even when Mr LMT suggested it but when Suzy told me that she teared upon watching it and my collegues were all raving about it how they cannot believe that an adam sandler's movie can evoke such emotion, i finally decided to watch it and judge myself! And damnn was it good! Needless to say i shed a tear or two (*in denial of course).

Besides that on national day i had escaped to JB y'all, yes yes i know what some people are going to say, where is my patriotism for my country? In fact almost all who called and complained when they cannot reached me that day said the exact same thing. Now despite Singapore can be such a stifling environment at times, no doubt i spent my life so far here, and obviously no matter where i go i feel very much at home in my country. Its just the fact that i was just slightly sore that i cannot go to the national day parade being it the final year being celebrated at Kallang stadium and all!I know how overwhelming it can feel if you are at the stadium yourself, the atmosphere just gets to you! And only then all your resentment towards the grunts and groans of the high standard of living here will be forgiven 'for just that moment'.

So when my parents suggested that they wanted to go to the new shopping mall in JB, i just could not turn away from that!!! De-stressing by shopping was what i needed! And what's more wonderful was the fact that my appointments with some people for work was cancelled! Therefore we get to leave earlier with my cousin family in tow,since he was driving us there.

We were heading to Tebrau City the one with the biggest Jusco in Malaysia, but not before we got de-tour for a couple of hours. Driving in JB can be such a tedious chore! Instead we went ahead and have our lunch cum dinner at Anjung Warisan, a restaurant on treetop, such a cool place! I felt malay-fied all over again,with the kampung atmosphere, angklung music in the background, sitting on the floor and eat, lounging around (in fact my dad actually lied down!) so relaxing!Just great! Away from the concrete jungle!

After that dinner my cousin didnt gave up easily and finally found the mall! And boy was it huge! I was already geared up la! The place has some of my favourite shops, and this is good so next time i can just refuse the crowd in orchard road and shop here! Left the place looking smugged and contented, how can you resist sales that were going for 50% 70%??? By the time we were making our way home,i was already worn out but my dad who is sucker for durians just cannot resist himself making a stopover at the durian fair nearby. Me im not much of a fan la, but it was an experience of course i find out all about the deal what is the difference of a normal durian and a D24. They have other fruits there as well, so yeps my house has an aroma of all tropical fruits you can think off! Temporarily this house its a fruit farm, we have durian, jackfruit, rambutans,mata kuchings, langsat, and much more! My family they like eating fruits a lot hence the varieties hehee

So it was love love outing that night! It made my day!

Alright i would love to spend more time here and end my entry nicely but heh looks like i got to rush for another appointment,what life huh

Till another time!

It can be frighteningly overwhelming..

The word 'responsibility' can be such a burden at times..

Sigh..

Rescue me please...

Everyone who had watch The Lakehouse were bragging to me how sappy and romantic it was!
And i have to agree after watching it just now, all sorts of mambo-jumbo mushy feeling came out to play, sigh... Keanu Reeves is so dashing, and there's just something in his eyes that make me go weak in the knees.. I'll be flying to hollywood tomorrow to make him mine (oh how i wish!)..Despite some conti error i spotted in some scenes, its all forgiven baby! Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock has a chemistry like no other! Oh and i cant get enough of the Paul MacCartney tune, it's so mellow and breathtaking and so romantic! Haizz ok, im lacking of some slight romance in my life, feeling vulnerable is not a crime.

**Reminder**
Find the book Mr LMT, 'Persuasion'.
Just in case it slips your mind :)
See im so thoughtful to leave you a memo note here!

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On another note, this blog might be stagnant for awhile.
I just said might be.
Why?
Because it's crunch time, and believe me during this period i wont even have time to take a breather, which means simply said i'll be busy.

Have a wonderful weekend to all!

Better late then never, but i finally got to watch Captain Jack Sparrow in action last night! Johnny Depp's potrayal of the nonchalant and witty pirate was so theatrical and funny, i cannot imagine any other actors filling in for him for that character! He just made it his own! CGI effects was superb, especially Davy Jones and his crew which were entirely computer-generated. The downside was it took quite awhile for the movie to kick start and get your attention. My favourite scenes in the movie has got to be when Jack Sparrow, his crew and Will Turner was captured by the native tribes people! It was really hilarious and entertaining! Overall, i enjoyed it but probably not as much as its first successor :)

And the only thing that's bugging Mr LMT after he watched the movie was why did Elizabeth Swann kisses Jack Sparrow, i had my conclusion while he had his but Mr LMT who's getting more blunt by the day just could not stop himself and added that 'it's a typical thing for ladies to do. They are always confuse creatures'. Bluerrgh, thanks eh.

Of course despite the matter was ensued into a debated arguement, all things end well over the soothing teh-tarik, prata cheese egg (which was fantabulous because it was sinful to my diet), and his usual teh-o ice limau and double thosai for supper. Aaah food does wonders you know!


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Sometimes there are certain principles in life that you detest so much that you disallowed people that are important in your life to practise it, but when it manifested beyond your control and blinded your vision to look upon yourself, it'll be too late to realise that you are eating your own flesh instead..

Reason for having this sentiments because i can be an emotional wreck for thinking too much..

Convulsing in dread, grappling for some sense of explaination, i tried to console myself, finding the comfort in me just to calm down, of which i should say as one of the days when my emotions will overide like a major tsunami and all i felt was tears burning down my cheeks.

tsk tsk.. excuse me for ranting gibberish crap...