When there are so many things on my mind, the only way to ease them is go out and buy something that makes you feel better about yourself :),

Although it's not exactly a good practise to make it a habit!

Mama who was usually the one who will always convince me to think twice before purchasing anything was hopeless the past couple of days, instead of trying to stop me she actually encourages me..!

For example,I saw a pretty kimono baby-doll dress that ive been DYING (ok exaggerated but really almost!) to get, ever since i saw this hot indonesian actress donned it with her jeans on TV. My search was futile because not one came close to the one that she wore until i saw it at Civic Centre woodlands,how convenient! And its not that expensive but i told myself to get it next week when my pay will be in. But I betrayed myself!! I was afraid that it will no longer be there next week,consulted my mama and she said go on ahead and splurge.. Yes lor, that's exactly her words!!! Finally it was on the third trip in 3 days straight that i finally purchased it much to mama's delight! Unbelievably, both mama and my dad adores the dress also,heh yes the dad was there too yesterday..

So yeps got the dress and black leggins for under $50 after much bargaining and i told myself not to spend anymore for this week. Apparently Mama was pretending to be Miranda Priestly the devil this week,when she urged me to tag along with her to JB knowing jolly well i cant resist City Square because of the wonderful things you see. Told myself again though that i was not going to spend anything while im there, until i saw the aviator shades that i wanted to buy for quite awhile but same thing i could not get the kind that goes well with my rounded face hehee.. I wanted to get one after i saw them wore it and it look chic,god i love tabloids!






I especially like this one above!

Thus I was at my favourite store and i spot it,which i actually almost bought when i was in KL a few weeks ago but held back, this time i asked my mama's opinion if it actually look good on me (because i always always rely on her very honest and brutal opinions),amazingly she said i look good in it! The next thing i knew, i brought it back to Singapore!

My aviator shades,see how can you resist it right??And it only cost like what only RM19.90!!Convert that to Sing dollars and i think its worth it!



Darn it la, i should curb from spending anymore tau! Raya is coming and all!
That's it! Bad karma stay away from me, or at least i can pretend to be ok..?
Sigh...

To be honest i do not enjoy watching Singapore Idol, because it lacks substance.
I rather watch Malaysia's Talent shows or Indonesian's talent shows, not because i detest our local talents but i think the people reponsible for SI thinks that home viewers are a big joke and that they insult our intelligence of judging what a real gem is!

And the reason i update myself was (or only follow up with my mama since most of the spectacular shows i was working), i really hope Hady Mirza bagged the title. He and Maltilda are the only good thing that happened for the second season of SI.

And he did! And i was there to withness that! Dee was the kind soul who gave Su and me the tickets, thank god i could make it!

So there i went for the sake of 'soaking in' (in Gurmit's words) this idol craze
hoopla. I was so confident that Jon will win because i wasnt sure if they would allow another Malay idol. Although we all know that Vocally Hady is very strong compared to Jon, which even if Jon wins i wont be so sore about it. He does after all look 'marketable to make it big in the region', which i do not understand why that became a priority in ushering a Singapore Idol? What happened to quality?

But i was glad that Singaporeans realised that Hady was more deserving! My whole family supported him! My mama called me after the result and said she can now sleep peacefully at night, and that before his name was being announced her stomach became shrunk! I feel her too! I was waiting with bated breath for the final truth, and its like waiting for the referee to blow the final whistle in a soccer match! And when it did everyone went crazy! Including me,im not shy to say that i screamed i jumped and screamed again and hugged Su,it was just so exciting! Even my dad who is a staunch with giving generous comments is a Hady fan ya'll (its this musician thingy la who is very critical about everything),he said with conviction that Hady is even better then Taufik (love taufik love taufik!He look hotter!) and that his vocal has more weight (whatever that means,in his terms la) then any other contestant!

Phew!With that said, i hope Hady's career doesnt stops here and limited to only doin 7-Eleven or Beras Harmoni adverts eh..He really made my toe curls whenever he croons la, the song he sang by Chaka Khan is the one that gave me wings,ooohboy!

Anyways not much,but some random pics of me and Su on that night :)

Thank you Su for being there together with me, it was insane eh!







Su who seriously enjoyed taking snaps of me with my hair down, she confesses that she's smitten with me and that i should let my hair down more often..hhehee malu la babe,and you were lucky that night because it was truly an occassion to let my hair down in honor of Hady Mirza!

*Life is good when im at home,got off days for what's left of the week from work, can next week wait a bit longer?*

Currently,i am able to smile this wide due to a
A part of me wants to jump for joy, sing a song, kiss everybody and laugh my heart out..
But behind this facade, there's the other part that is holding me back, terrified upon this new discovery,doubts were lingering in my mind and the urge to run away and be in solitude..

So you can say that Confusion has got the best of me lately...

It's been quite awhile you know since i had this pleasant sensation of the emotions going into overdrive mode.. Everything feels like wonderland to me, Lis in Wonderland? How appropiate?

The myriads of cheerful colors of happiness and the swirls of whimsical imaginations that define my utmost fear which stops me from venturing over to discover if the forbidden candy doesnt kill at all..

But what is risk? if we dont gamble and take a chance?

There are too many 'what if's' to consider and visions of the awry past looms over my head warning me of the lessons learnt.....

As much as i want to wake up from this dream so that i dont fall into the wrong tunnel and hurt myself again, i cannot be in denial that the sweet surrender that i feel is real and what ive been yearning for a long time while i was in seclusion...

Oh it's no fun having to stand on a thin line, i just want to be strong enough to banish all the hesitation i have and take reality as it is.. Happiness has to be achieved along the way with failure, trust me im trying to get use to that..

p/s: Su thanks for this photo you took :) I like and the fact that you took it pronto which took me off guard (but i still look maintain hor!hehee)
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And i hope its not too late to wish all Muslims Selamat menjalani ibadah berpuasa!!
Semoga diberkati dengan penuh rahmat di bulan Ramadhan yang mulia ini!

Shout out to one of my Favourite bimbo Shidah!! Happy 22nd Birthday babe!!! Kita da sama tua!! Wish you longevity and joy both in love and work!!!

I think i surprise so many people with my previous entry?
The number of people who kept popping up on msn asking me if im alright, really caught me off guard!

Initially i was a blur sotong by going 'huh' when one after another genuinely
showed their concerned, Lis like dhuh!

Im ok guys, it was one of those moments when anger took over rational thinking ;)
Im sure we all have those moments dont we? Nevertheless, im really moved that you guys actually bothered to ask (or want to know?hehee)!

Ive never felt so dumb and demoralised in my entire life as i am feeling right now..
I was never a failure and even if i know that i cant i will always make my way up either way or another.

But this..today, ive never felt so despaired. I was engulfed in frustation, my head spinning at the repercussion. And all i wanted to do was just let my tears flow.

But it doesnt mean anyone has a right to give me a hard time.

No one knows how fcukin hard i tried and the multiples of effort that i had put in. Even i cant explain my own failing.

It's already done much damage to my ego thank you very much and i simply do need anyone to let me know that i am a loser.

Save yourself the trouble because i have already acknowledge that myself.

Right now how i wish i am with the rest of my family who are on their way to KL..
The follow up trip which i was suppose to be included,
But here i am, in front of the screen not budging an inch when I should be getting ready and head for work..Somehow that doesnt sound so exciting at this moment :(

As usual i miss their presence already..

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The last conversation i had with Her, i said

"Babe, i want to see you fall in love again.."

Sounds absurd but i want to see her bask in happiness all over again so that i can pinch her cheeks and she wont feel anything but absolute euphoria..

And after knowing the truth yesterday, i cannot contain my happiness for her! After a long period of dark clouds it's finally wonderful to see Mr Sunshine shining upon you once again.. Who could have thought that it was him? He who you used to gush all about in madrasah classes when we were suppose to be paying attention during our lessons ;)

It was long time coming babe, but it is worth all the heartaches :)

Like we said to each other "We deserve this, after all" hehee

This song is for you woman!

Cinta Terakhir - Ari Lasso

Sedalam samudra t’lah aku selami
setinggi langit di angkasa t’lah aq arungi
sepanjang kehidupanku aku mencari
sebentuk kelembutan hati cinta sejati

kini….usai sudah segala penantian panjangku
setelah temukan dirimu duhai kekasihku
hanya…di hatimu ‘kan kulabuhkan hidupku
karena kau..lah..cinta terakhirku

Berjuta kejora terangi gelap malamku
tetap tak seindah cahaya mata hatimu

If i could have things my way, i will never allow people who have been
my source of comfort to fade away from my life. I will opt them to be my permanent fixture. Never to worry about questioning myself as to when,what,where,and how.

This is the facets of life, and since i cant prevent death at my own will what makes me think that i can stop people from leaving me?

Nevertheless,if these are the people you value so much and the sincerity of friendship is still there after all these years, it's possible and most probably fated that the friendship is mine to keep eventually..

I believe so, i have found friendships again these couple of years back besides making new ones of course! And yet again an old familiar face i saw a couple of days
back got me all excited at the prospect of picking up another friendship where it had been abandoned off for so so long!



Hey Babe,

It was such joy to bump into you yet again! This time with Islyana in tow! There was no doubt how delighted all of us felt the moment our eyes crosses each other's path. We made a mad rush towards each other, oblivious to the other crowds,we squealed in excitement buried ourselves in deep hugs and gushing to each other how long it had been! It was quite a moment especially between you and Islyana, 10 years of not seeing each other and the ironic fact that both of you live in woodlands. So there we were scrutinising one another closely, to take it all in on what we had missed for the past decade! Conclusion? The same voice that was oh-so-familiar and ultimate insane-ness! Though that fleeting moment was simply too little for us to fill in the significant changes that took place in our lives but it was just as precious as to get what we could get hold of each other :)

I miss you woman!

I can never forget the friendship you offered to this girl back in 1995 when we were just 11. I was that dorky girl who felt so lost on her first day at her new school.
Intimidated by her new surroundings, Latifah you were this other girl with your long signature braided hair who welcomed me with much warmth! And then we have Islyana, the new girl but who had so much zest for life (still do)!

All the crazy fun and those silly moments of despair we had for 2 years when we were with each other,had left a remarkable impression in my life! How can it not be? We were together at our peak when we were going through puberty! Very Innocent i remembered we used to be, but i recalled the big dreams we crave for ourselves! Sad to say the beautiful friendship took it's rest for the day the moment all of us got separated and went to different schools... It took a long while before my friendship rekindled back with Isly and now that we have found you again im sure we can do something about the wonderful friendship that we have neglected for quite awhile? A simple request of wanting you all for ourselves soon for dinner, sounds great dont you think?? ;)



P/s: Latifah you were nooooooooot suppose to be this tall!!!
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Other then this wonderful thing that happened, the past week had whizzed by so quickly! I had been watching movies back to back! Goodness! All with great company of course!!And that includes stuffing myself senseless with food before fasting starts next week and getting to taste the much-talked about fish and chip at Mad Jack Cafe yesterday with Mr LMT ended my week with a satisfying bang!

I enjoyed myself immensely, well i better do before i slump back into working mode this week..!

*Happy thoughts Lis Happy thoughts* sighh..

*WARNING: WORDY ENTRY AHEAD!*
Aiyah im still freshed from post-getaway that my itchy fingers cannot stop typing and rambled away! So this is a very lenthy one liao!

My escapade for the weekend was nowhere far, my ultimate agenda of 'seeking solace' (as told to Mr LMT)in Kuala Lumpur was simply craving for some time apart away from our stifling shores. A quickie getaway to ease the mind and well indulged on a bit of retail theraphy. Ehem anything theraphy is not a health hazard, though its very hazardous to your pocket.

So Elfy and myself decided to depart on Saturday night so that we have the whole Sunday without rushing and some more time on Monday before we head back that day.

I totally dig travelling coach by night (much thanks to Mr LMT for purchasing the tix for us), i cant explain why but i just love the unsettling feeling as the coach cruise by the plantations and how spooky it looks at night. Of course i had certain reservations of my own like fearing for our safety. Thankfully it was a smooth ride but unexpectedly we reached KL way early then our estimated time. We were already there at 3am (freaking early!!), since we can only booked into our hotel later that day, we were very much aimless but luckily our trip coincide with Baidah's trip with her family. Such a relief when she was kind enough to let us crash at her suite in Berjaya Times Square hotel for the morning.

The hospitality by her big family was great, but we didnt get much of a sleep the entire night, the time was spent yakking away in the kitchen since the rest of the area was already occupied. I guess it was very much needed! Filling up the missing gaps on what we missed out on each other and laughing our ass up each time her uncle 'farted' in between our conversations(while sleeping mind you!)!

We had Nasi Kandar for brunch, a hearty brunch i should say! With that we bid goodbyes to her boisterous family who greeted these two refugees with much warmth! I love your family babe!


Elfy and Baidah (swimming pool at Times Square hotel before Elfy and me left)

Did a weeny binge on spending before i told Elfy that im in desperate need of a bath, the humid weather was getting to me, but not before both of us got lost in Bukit Bintang trying to search for our hotel Dorsett Regency which in the end was located right at the very end of the infamous shopping belt in KL.

We were so glad that we were able to check in at 12.30pm and as soon as we got into our room,it was heaven sent! Like finally after sweating ourselves out i was looking forward to a long cold bath until Elfy exclaimed as she pushed away the heavy curtains to unveil the view from our hotel room (by the way,this has always been a habit each time she steps into a hotel room first, to check out the view)

"Thanks eh Lis! Thanks a lot! The view lawa nak mampos!"

I knew immediately that was sarcasm. You see i was the one who booked the hotel and both of us agreed that this time we want our hotel to be conveniently located in Bukit Bintang. And i had done my own research of the hotel, it was value for money with good location and it was a four star hotel after all. I read a review that it will be even better if your hotel room will be on the 15th floor and above because you get to see the beautiful city of blinding lights at night with KLCC in view but we were already crestfallen when our room was on the 8th floor but i did not expect the view to be this



So as soon as i saw this i burst out laughing so hard and was tickled very much to see the expression on Elfy's face to which i replied

"Eh darling this is first class view la! How often do you get a hotel room facing a lake this wonderful! So cantik macam nak go swimming in the lovely green water kan?! Susah tau nak request this room specially untuk kau just to get this view!!"

By then Elfy could no longer hold on and laughed her heart out too

"Ok la tasik pun tasik la!!"

So after having a good rest we head out, taking the LRT to Puduraya first to get our return home coach tickets and then off to KLCC to have our late lunch. Both of us were craving for the steak at their foodcourt (which we always have when we were in the capital) it tasted quite good for an affordable price. Browse around KLCC but surprisingly we did not get anything at all, past experiences we cannot leave without purchasing something.I did tried on a few shoes but its either they dont have my size or the color that i wanted! The only thing that i bought there believe it or not were cinammon rolls! I miss cinammon rolls la! Singapore dont have it anymore!

Later on we head back to bukit bintang Sungai Wang, bought a few things especially a new pair of shades (yay!) but honestly i supposed we were feeling tired our enthusiasm for shopping failed us. By 10pm we have given up and decided to go for a well-deserved massage.
Ok the main priority of this trip was 'THE MASSAGE', yeps that was the sole reason why i lure my dearest Elfy to come with me to KL. I cannot stand the aching body that has been prolonging for weeks and before it screams bloody murder i need to get it pampered.

It was very orgasmic la..sigh..ok omit all the dirty thoughts you have! But it was hell of good massage with the lady massaging at the right places especially when she was adding pressure at the tension points. I was in a daze when we left the place, and much much lighter :) it was so good that we were finding a hard time to wake up for breakfast!! Although i could do with a couple more hours of sleep i cannot bear missing breakfast, by the time we head down it was almost 9am. Breakfast was brilliant,the spread was amazingly good, spoilt for choices and i love the ambience of the restaurant, the waiter got us seated by the window facing Ritz Carlton (fyi our hotel was nestled among the glitzy hotels, Ritz to our front, Westin right, JW Marriot was behind), therefore we were feeling-feeling madamoiselle in a french cafe, sipping orange juice,coffee and feasting on good toast with omelette! Heh to which all of a sudden i smacked my forehead and realised that i did not bring my camera down with me. And an even bigger more gasped when i realised that we have neglected cam whoring the entire time which i pointed out to Elfy


"Fy! Kita tak ambik gambar eh dari semalam??!"

Elfy replied "kan kau kata datang sini nak relax-relax je, shopping pun tak nak banyak-banyak, kalau nak kene pening kepala taking pictures penat tau nak posing-posing"

She is always good at giving me off-guard anwers which always gets me giggling! Anyways its not our first trip to KL and we have seen and been around here so many times that we just did not bother taking photos. I mean you dont want to know how many KLCC twin towers photo i have!

Anyways on the last day,i dont know what got into us we were doing last mintue geared up shopping! I suppose both of us had been revitalise after the whole pampering affair the previous night. Things that look stale the day before somehow its a must get that day! So much for 'taknak banyak shopping'heehee! We spent quite a sum at Factory Outlet, i adore that store so much! Cheap bargains from US brands! So much so that i actually overspent, i was just doing the like and grab as i go along, getting things for the family back home. Pure satisfaction! Only one complained though i have a hard time finding a cd shop, and when i do the CD that Mr LMT requested was sold out! Selling like hotcakes eh Sheila Majid!

We would love to spend another day there.. Albeit it was a short period, i had a lovely time with Elfy, how romantic i know!

The only photos of us being taken on the way back to Singapore in the coach (psst! im loving my newly arched eye brows,one of the many 'things things' we did in our room!!Hehee its long overdue la, and i only allow Elfy and no one else to touch them. Ironically Elfy gave me a stern warning too i better not go anywhere else and have it plucked because she will KNOW!Yikes!)





I love quickie getways like this, but next time can we have the Banyan Tree Villa?
Hehee yesh yesh, we are crazy like that berangan tak abis sudah! Ok la Fy, Baidah, itu villa i rather spend it with my other half la hor! Not that i dont love you guys to death but well tak steam la go with you ladies! Imagine the inhibited things i can do with the other half..?! Ok now the dirty thoughts can start kickin in!! Heh!!

It's weird how karma works right back,
Alicia Keys was right after all..

Right now, as usual as always im a last minute packer
Decided to escape for the weekend, a spontaneous decision actually
Cant wait to wind down with my favourite ladies and have a really good time before reality awaits me next week..
R&R is all i need right now oh and i wouldnt mind a fling or two being thrown at me heh I guess that includes some eyewashing that needed to be done right away aka eye candy.. Hehee..

Alritey i cant believe i got the cheek to update an entry when im suppose to leave in half's an hour time!

Have a wonderful weekend lovelies :))

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With that i leave you with a song i updated in my blog that's my current fav! i believe i have fallen for this song big time!

A little bit of tip here, for the guys especially. If you are thinking of ways to win the heart of a special someone or in fact maybe propose marriage to her this is just the perfect song,serenade her and she will definitely swoon! Im sure i will!

The lyrics are very special and trust me every woman longs to be look after by the man she swears her life upon and cant live without, even how independent and hard-hearted she can be :).

If you like Goo Goo Dolls i bet you will enjoy this song too, happy listening!


Look After You by The Fray

If I don't say this now I will surely break
As I'm leaving the one I want to take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has started to separate

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
I'll look after you
And I'll look after you

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
She says most assuredly

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
be my baby
I'll look after you

It's always have and never hold
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

When mama was fussing with me to come and watch what's on the news, i just shrugged tiredly and thought "what could be so important?

Then she said "Look who died"

That piqued my interest instantly, then when i saw who it was i became speechless. A wave of disbelief washed over me. Still reeling from shocked i asked the question out loud " He died? Its not a joke at all right??" of course my parents did not anwser that question, i mean its on the bulletin news for goodness sake how can that be a sick joke??



It was hard to digest that Steve Irwin had died. No i am not someone who knows him personally nor am i a great environmentalist who is a fan of his. I am just someone who admire the work he had done and the courage that comes along with it. Sometimes when i watch his shows, things like "What was he thinking??" or "Whoa im amazed!" came into mind. Certain people might assume that he was just another jovial clown who was putting his life on the line with all the dangerous animals he came in contact with. But he was no clown, this what you call Passion for the very thing he enjoys doing every minute. And he died doing what he loves doing..That man deserves that much of a credit.

And one of the many reasons why its so hard to believe he was killed was because my little darling nephew (who is just one and half years old by the way) simply enjoys watching his educational kids show.




Since it will always be telecast before his other favourite programme Sesame Street, Rayyan will always giggle when Steve will play tease with the animals and sometimes stare in awe at the various weird looking animals that came on screen. Yeps he likes the show that much. And the most endearing part is, it was due to this Steve Irwin's programme that Rayyan and me shared a common joke, our favourite joke, it's a croc joke with me telling him if he's naughty the croc will come and bite him and that will always get him bursting into giggles while i tickle him silly. And while i may still have the common joke going on, the difference is my little one who loves the man friendly voice don't know that he had died tragically.

My condolence goes out to the family who had been humble and brave during this difficult period.

p/s: psst..only my little rayyan will look that adorable with his nose dripping wet in the photos above. Yes even no other men who i favour can ever look this good ;)

Zul had turned 22 last week, since he is one of the coolest and selamba-est Mat i know it's only right that no one should ever forget when is his birthday. The very humble guy that he is never suspected anything that even when his girlfriend who was playing evil and complained how come none of us remembered his birthday. We caught him by surprise when we met him while he was doing his shopping!! Poor dude! heheehe..Since we had to admit we were short on time, We decided to do something unformal and random this time.

That night we succumb ourselves to everything indian, so obviously all of us were heading to Little India but not before handing Zul a mere birthday card that wishes him and also an apology from us that a card was all we could afford to give him on his birthday. Though little did he know,Zul was actually being bestowed with the Midas touch which means things that he genuinely touched and liked were being noticed at Mustafa Centre and in the end purchase by us to present him as his birthday gifts. It was tacky but it was a whole lot fun! Ended the night with masala thosais, indian fried rice and a truck full of laughter!





Getting into Character


The loyal couple to each other, ho ho ho!! I love you 'Islay' sexy babe!!


A moment with my lovely Su!


Caught in the act looking confused, each of us had took turns to read out phrases from the huge card that aptly says "8 GIFTS THAT DONT COST A CENT"


The heroines of the night, kajol la, aishwarya rai la, karishma kapoor la, rani murkerjee la and myself la feeling preity zinta la..oh goodness! hehee



But the most beautiful moment as got to be from this couple, it was an uninitiated proposal, well it wasnt an 'official official' proposal, still to be in their company when it happened was so blissful and utmost romantic!



I thank you guys for that special night.. and we shall again babes, we shall strike again!

The four idiots met up the other day after a long absence of not seeing each other.
Besides everyone's hectic schedules, there were also intense tension somewhere in between. But i guess, it will come to a point that i cannot bother to harbour ill feelings that would destroy friendships built almost over a decade. It's just too precious you know.

Anyways, despite the awkwardness that i felt at first there was no doubt i had a wonderful time! Everything from the ah lai, to the food shopping, right down to the ala 'picnic' we had by the merlion (gosh hor corny is that eh!) and all to the way to the end when we were feeling a wee bit 'tai-tai' at the fullerton hotel, madness!

Can we meet and refrain from producing laughing gas?! Hah i hope not! I love all the lame, spontaneous, tacky jokes that we shared, it was this that made me smile all the way back home thinking yes these are the few selected friends that i will never give up for just like that eventhough sometimes we bite each other's tougues and bruise each other's heart, i mean come on! It makes us feel more human this way!!





Much Love babes! oh yah and to the only dude among the babes, the one that is being spoiled by the ladies and always enjoy that privilege

Ok in all glory-ness, im publishing photos of myself looking disgustingly dishevelled on the final day of production. Yeps, i am like that looking good became secondary.
Oh shoot me! In case some of you might notice, i looked tanned nopes i look
burned! Slaps myself when i realised there is such thing as sunblock!


The sound guys with one of my favourite person from the team my Asst Director.


The laidback art department,with our Director


With the people who made the cast looking pretty,members of the foundation of the team and our easygoing director.

Wrap party soon..?! Heh i miss them already