Anticipating for my birthday present in advance seems like a real good temptation..

All are still weighing the pros and cons, just talking about it excites me till no end ;)

Black or Dark Grey?

We all will know eventually but then again we might not...

Oh wells! Heehee =)

You know these days, i dont have the luxury to go and watch the movies like how i used too..

So..

Finally last Monday,an impromptu suggestion from someone who pities me and date me out for a movie.. We watch Norbit! It was delightful to watch, Eddie Murphy was brilliant in the multiple characters that he played! It wasnt a Super Fantastic movie but nevertheless the kind that tickles your funnybones senseless!



The next day Tuesday, without realising, i had movie marathon going on at home with the family no less! Got to watch Kuntilanak, an indonesian horror movie. Execution of the movie was good, they have the content,suspense,with a hanging conclusion in the end (which i could figure out easily) which is the basic essence of making a horror movie work. One that made you shiver and hide your face under pillow but also not the kind that will haunt you even when you go to sleep! Speaking of which mama got the cheek to tease me by saying 'hai kata nak jadi filmaker, tapi filmaker takot tgk crita hantu eh,tutup muka bawah bantal pulak'..welll i am not afraid to admit that i have a small heart what!!!

Then after that movie we watch Mel Gibson's self-directed movie Apocalypto. Mama wasnt please to see boobies hangin out showing their tits as well as the many bare ass in the movie,still it was a gripping action/suspense/historical film. The plot was straightforward,it was interesting to watch how the next scene unfolds,some of which could make you feel repulse! It was the kind of movie that you would want to watch till the end. As a result, we had family quality time spent while watching this, although as usual Mama being the one who cannot stop ask questions pertaining to the movie. One of the major factor as to why Mama should just stay home and watch DVDs instead of going to the movie theatres to watch,heh yes she is irritating like that!


Lastly,we watch Cinta which my mama boughtt frm JB.. I knew I'm gonna like it the moment I saw the trailer. It promises a different kind of a love story that a Malaysian market would normally produced. And what do I think of it? It was well done, the 5 love stories merged beautifully to give you the message the it was trying to send which is Cinta. Needless to say, tears formed in my eyes without any warning. Tears of heartfelt moments which you could relate to easily. After watching the movie, you would just feel like turning to someone or in fact just call someone up to say how much they mean to you. The soundtrack,I love it so much that a couple of days back i begged mama to return home from JB with the soundtrack cd, and well now suffice to say it's playing on repeat mode especially this current track from the king of ballads himself who always manages to sing songs from the heart..



"ku harungi hari demi hari bersama wajah tak mungkin akan kembali tapi hati masih tak terima ditinggalkan sengsara

keraguan ini bukanlah padamu
perasaan hati masih rindu
kekalutan ini hanyalah untukku
tercari-cari bayanganmu"

Perpisahan by Anuar Zain

I have a favourite quote from the movie itself "Sometimes the one you love the most, is the one hardest to love" ..how true how true, simple words like that can give you so much impact in your life..Think about it..

Our final filming day for our project was at Ubin..Very interesting, being it my first time to the island. Yes i know,i am that hopeless i have not been to Ubin the whole 22 years of my life.
I heard wonderful stories from people who had been there and also spooky tales. The spooky tales was what held me back from the island but you know what, I went to a part of Ubin that those spooky tales were far from my mind! The place was so serene and beautiful. The laidback ambience was so captivating during almost sunset that we had a hard time stepping off the island and back to the cosmo shore..



MCC, Ubin resort is a very nice place.. I would hold a bbq event or gathering there anytime if i were to choose any other coastal beach in Singapore.. Ubin is like away from Singapore but near!







Anyways, the production crew had our wrap up dinner that night as well. Its funny how i can get emotional with a team each time a project finishes up :), haizz i sure gonna miss all the bonding and bouts of laughter that we always always never fail to have! Working for this project certainly change my perception over some issues, and i am so happy to come out from this one enlightened, as well as gain a couple of mentors whom i am so grateful to for showing me the ropes whilst working..






Hmmm..one thing i also like after coming back from Ubin was how nice my skin looks tanned.. heh shall monotone all my skin for another secluded session next weekend i hope!

It slipped my mind that tomorrow is valentines day.. I met up with Elfy just so I could borrow her digicam (fyi mine is not dead it is just not usable,those who are aware will know what im talking about hehe). So before we shopped for birthday presents, I was in dire need for food, we chose Swensons at Marina Square and that was when i realised the V-day tomorrow..

Believe it or not, 99% of the customers were couples! It was a sore eyesight to Elfy, who is still nursing her wounded heart.. I decided to make her night and told her the dinner is on me, my valentine dinner for her much to her surprise..

We had a nice server boy who was so eager to get our orders, refilled our ice water without asking and he even offered one of the best seats in the restaurant, tucked away from the crowd, it was cosy with candles and mini heart shape balloon on the table..and what are we missing? 2 man who should had filled the 2 empty seats beside us, even one of the server came to serve 4 ice water thinking that we are expecting 2 more person..Before we left the young boy just had to ask

"Well you pretty ladies not celebrating valentines?"

Big bewildered eyes

Elfy and me gave 2 different answers

I said "Well we are, she is my valentine date" with a smile

While Elfy said "There are suppose to be 2 guys but well tak sampai-sampai pulak"

Everywhere we go it was so apparent love is in the air,pretty blatant everywhere you turn you see heart shapes and scent of fresh flowers reaches your nostrils. Excuse me,if i may sound like a kid who did not get her candy but trust me, Im not so hard on about V-day because i dont even celebrate it when i was in relationships, so it makes no difference actually

Its hard for Elfy still, she is not fragile but i know when she laughs it doesnt reach her heart and her eyes dont light up.. I feel what she was going through, i know the kind of pain that consumes her being, everything is just not right.. When i was going through what i call 'the emotional turbulence' she had all the words a best friend would say to comfort her friend.. I will do the same for her too and I just cant wait for 2 more weeks, lets run free, shout our hearts out, laze around and yes i promise her she could cry cry cry and cry and i will follow suit and cry with her if it makes her feel better..

Hmmm..we all have our days, when we all will kiss so many toads hoping it will turn into a prince,hah! Fairy tales has ruin our logical sense of mind sometimes..

But You guys know what, its even harder when you wake up one day and trust your intuitive you are in love with him but knows that it will all be in vain.. Truth hurts when the other person do not feel the same way,you want to blame him but then it is not his fault isnt it..sighh

I am in fact trying to distinguish between falling in love and my infatuation for someone.. But I am so keen right now that this lingering feeling will just be another infatuation which will pass eventually..trying so darnest hard that its a mantra i keep myself positive each day and chant "it is just an infatuation" especially when the mind starts to wander..

Anyways Brandy says it all in her song,

Almost made you love me
Almost made you cry
Almost made you happy, baby
Didnt I didnt i

You almost had me thinkin
You were turned around
But everyone knows
Almost doesnt count

Almost heard you saying
You were finally free
What was always missing for you, baby
Youd found it in me
But you cant get to heaven
Half off the ground
Everbody knows
Almost doesnt count

I cant keep on lovin you
One foot outside the door
I hear a funny hesitation
Of a heart thats never really sure
Cant keep on tryin
If youre looking for more
Than all that I could give you
Than what you came here for

Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no doubt be there kind of man
You came real close
But every time you built me up
You only let me down
And everybody knows
Almost doesnt count

Maybe youll be sorry
Maybe youll be cold
Maybe youll come runnin back, baby
from the cruel cruel world
Almost convince me
Youre gonna stick around
But everybody knows
Almost doesnt count

So maybe Ill be here
Maybe Ill se ya round
Thats the way it goes
Almost doesnt count

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To all who are bless with someone special in your life, maybe Valentines Day is just a novelty, we should cherish someone everyday without waiting for 14 February and also if you are a muslim its not a practise that you should adopt
but then again, if this day makes you feel closer to them and reminds you of how important they are in your life.. I would say "Go ahead spoil them if you have too for the sake of v-day" ..Thus its also right I wish you guys Happy Valentines Day as well :)

To those who feel unloved, nursing your broken hearts i say! May cupids hit you loads if not tomorrow then soon :), All the same i wish you a lovely day ahead and dont let all the chocolates, hearts and bouquets of flowers get to you!

We met a few days back and as usual we had endless fun :)

The photos sums it all up



















These 2 mak neneks thinks it's fun to mock at me



But it made this 'miss goody-two-shoes' one happy bookworm! Carrefour was selling the books at super super super cheap price!!! The girls had to literally dragged me away from the section hehee,sorry hor i cant resists the temptation la!!


And even after Elfy left, Baidah and myself were still at it but this time its with her mobile camera heh, and you know the quality of a photo taken frm a cameraphone right?Well Presenting to you, from the pictures below this is how i look at the end of an exhausting day, yes yes please do check out my eyebags! Horrible horrible sight!








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Otherwise the week had been real tight, since its the final lap for my project and all. My Favourite boy perk me up a couple of days this week by dropping over my place! And guess what he finally managed to say 'aahh-teee' which for all i care sounds as good as 'aunty'!!!

He is turning mischevious by the day but i just adore him plentiful! In a few days time this Boy is turning 2!!! Ala so quick!!!!









And he smiles at me all the time...meltsss

Lastly my Saturday was splendid too! Mr LMT lost his bet and treated me to satay (see how nice i am by merely asking for Satay!), and i really wasnt kidding when i said you look hot in yellow-orange ;) Thank you for letting me indulge on satay babats (my mama would scream if she knows heh) though i know the long route way back home was not something you enjoyed entirely. I am no good in my sense of directions thus making me a bad navigator :(, peace peace ok!!

Phew...skali entry berjela-jela eh! Have a lovely week everyone, i am so so sure all of you are looking forward to the long weekend!!!

So the other day, my first shoot ended early before noon. In order to kill some time before the next shoot, Fizah and myself was determined to queue up for the hottest donuts in town at cityhall. We were so delighted when we saw there was no queue at 'Donuts Factory' which was not snaking all the way back! Until the lady in front of us mention " excuse me,but the queue is at the back.."

Now imagine that scene ala matrix, with bimbotic expression on our faces we turned to see a line of faces staring back at us either they were fuming or smirking that our joy of getting to buy the donuts were short-lived.

The thing was we were persistent and went to the back to queue. Amidst the crowd and conversations, I did not realise that we had queue up for almost 2 hours balls!!! The time is ticking away, and i am already late for my next shoot. I was in despair because I am almost close to buying it but the line refused to budge from then on, i had no choice but to make my move and leave!!! Dammn it!

Well in case u all dont understand my utter devastation!
This is my fourth time queueing up but leave without the donuts!!!!!! God how pathetic is that you tell me!!?!?

I needed a distraction badly, and it came from a kind someone :)
The suggestion came with a purpose and i didnt expect it to turn into a date
A simple craving for seafood fried rice and bee hoon goreng mama, we had
And then we had wonderful time exchanging our thoughts with regards to our professions,
somehow or rather we were very much linked, the people we both know and deal with, the insider's tales that got both of us excited! Its altogether different when so far all these while
our communication has been very professional due to work..

I am thankful that it was indeed very pleasant, a nice man is so hard to come by these days :)

At this point of time, i feel like all my bones are breaking
I have been walking in a dazed past few days, to add on to that I have been quite broody.
I never felt this exhausted before..

So since I am so zone out from my surroundings
I just have to be a klutz yesterday and fall on my arse while walking down the stairs at work. Yes this dumbo did not realise that she took 3 steps off the stairs and within seconds of the bumpy fall, i was instantly revived and very much alert

YES The Sequel to "Queen of SuperKlutz is Back"

Ignoring the stinging pain on my left palm, I quickly recovered myself before anyone could see what happened,goshhh although there wasnt a soul to witness that, it was so humiliating and I wanted to cry how taxing i suddenly felt..

Until I was up and about, the aftereffect impact of the fall was sending the chills to my backbone, not only that my arse is very very much in pain..no kidding..

I got home and relate the incident again to mama,in fact she was the person I called right after i fell down.. I desperately told her I do not think I can wait next month to pamper myself, we have to get a masseuse come over one of these days.. My whole body is aching, I cannot begin describing the pain to you.. I even do not let my parents to massage me, because a simple rub could ensue so much pain..

Darn, i think im on the verge of burning out although I may look so dandy fine to you.. Tell you the truth I am just running on adrenalin right now..

I want to have a day at the beach, and take in the easy breeze to relax, followed by an evening stroll, not thinking and worrying about anything at all...

Sigh..times like this I miss having someone..

My collegues and I were just chatting about random things after work,
And the 3 of us were naming which leading ladies we find hot, sexy,sultry,classy, well basically the whole package la!

All of us agree that Angelina Jolie is hot! But i have my personal favourite heh

Its Penelope Cruz y'all

I think she is simply beautiful, yes beautiful..all that hotness, sexy, gorgeous they all are sub-categories of the word Beautiful! I love her eyes the most by the way.. Plus she is nominated for an Oscar this year, a beautiful actress who takes her work seriously, now i find that a major turn on!