Exhaustion is beginning to take a toll on me,
Whilst procastinating is slowly creeping back, somehow work is endlessly piling up and its freaking me out, im not surprise if this develop into a phobia..

At the same time there is so much i want to blog about, ive been feeling nostalgic these few days, blame it on the current project that im working on.

Walking through geylang, the back alleys, the lorongs, the old school shophouses, the strong aroma of coffee beans, old provision shops, coffeeshops with people lazing around on a weekday, all these things are becoming scarce here..

Sungai Rd was brimming with all things that was a blast from the past, old photographs,vinyls, decorative things from the past era, watches, and many more things, i had so much fun stopping by each booth, gawking at things that i thought were just impossible to see anymore, especially those old cameras most of them are still in good condition, touching each pieces with care, if only i have enough buckeroos to splurge on those (but can anyone tell me if its really safe to buy those cameras there or worth it..?) in the end i bought a really pretty bag in citrus color for just a dollar :)

I love seeing this part of Singapore, the real dirt, not the glossy cosmopolitan city that we see everyday.. Somehow its really refreshing! Truly!

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Anyways, today had dinner at banquet(Eastpoint) with my darling elfy and gendeng, since elfy and me was from work we were drooling at the food stores and spoilt for choices and getting greedy ordering multiple food which in the end had gone to waste, hehee..Its getting even more exciting when gendeng showed us the prove for next week getaway! Seriously gendeng should really get a latest edition map and fancy him telling me that 'girls don't read maps well', gosh have faith in me and stop questioning me about the existence of the hotel!!bluekkk!

Man seriously have the tendency underestimating woman, damnn that's a low blow!! but still we cant live without them, sigh..

Met Latifah again while taking the feeder bus home! The irony is we were actually in the same bus 168 before reaching woodlands and both were dozing off!! That woman simply captivates me, got a lot to catch up with, 4 bus stops worth of conversation was so anti-climatic, this time talking to her i recognise back the way she talks like she always do, listening attentively with that husky voice of her, long gone the braids that she used to have in school (or probably there still is,covered in headscarf) she looks so beautiful tall and lanky! Oh why do i not have that height?! Anyways saw the twinkle in her eyes, it was so apparent she is very much in love :) , and we giggle like we were still 12 i know she has found the one because when i asked her how do you know this is love..? And she answered 'its not so much about the exciting feeling, u just simply feel complete,really..' my oh my she matured so much, thats really an earnest answer i ever got.. she has got her answer,

So how do you know it is Love..?

Have a jolly Sunday everyone :)

Meet up for thosai masala and teh tarik yesterday,
Decisions was made
What's left of it,is the confirmation

Can next friday come sooner..?
I cant hardly wait,

Yay!!drag my mama to ikea and woots!! haha i love shopping with mama, ikea is so her thingy and so we spent and so we discuss further about revamping my room! and yesh! its confirm!! Cant hardly wait!! A project of my own (besides a few others on the sideline! *counting on diyar and elfy!,winks*),hehe

Went to cold storage, and oops! i got a paparazzi tailing me while i do some grocery shopping!!



Unknowingly these photos were taken (*serious!) while i was so engrossed shopping, cant believe there was a snap of me contemplating to buy baby food! ok before bad rumours starts im not pregnant or have a baby,its for my beloved nephew la,heheee

hahaa ok all this photos was taken by this woman



its su la! testing out her new Sony Cyber-shot DSC-T7 camera! haha mentang-mentang camera aku tengah tenat!!

So yeah went photo taking spree afterwards! its been awhile since we go crazy taking photos!


testing..testing..heheeh not bad eh we look like we have flawless skin and very long eyelashes la,hehee



ok hehehe feeling candid vogue yang tak menjadi!

And jeng jeng jeng!
Finally the ever so gorgeous voluptious Miss Lis, with the ugly side of her face




hahhaha ok basically this entry is just to splash some visuals from the ever so selamba and mentel 2 daras!!

And my darling Su,the verdict is, it was obviously enjoyable, babe you brought back the fun-ness of posing for cameras again espcially with your sleek and stylish digi cam!

More to come, jangan serik eh pompuanz!! hehehee

Festival Filem Malaysia ke-18 (Malaysia's version of Oscar) had ended recently. It turned out to be a very controversial event as there were people voicing out their unsatisfaction over the results, claiming that the juries did not do justice about the film industry over there.

Apparently Puteri Gunung Ledang (PGL) supported by many to be winning most of the awards that they had been nominated for did not live up to their expectations. Instead the film Sepet won the Best Filem.

Honestly Sepet deserve to win the Best Filem if not Qaisy and Laila. I believe Sepet had set itself apart from all the love stories that Malaysia has produced onto a new level. I dont understand why many were unhappy with the outcome..? Just because PGL took millions ringgit to make it, does not mean that it deserves to be the Best Filem,i admit that PGL has definitely improve the quality standard of the film industry there. Unfortunately, PGL has a weak plot, i was anticipating the film before it premiered, since the trailer was superb. But then this was always the case when a film is hype up. Sepet on the other hand, has an outstanding plot that stir a lot of emotions when you watch it.

Nonetheless, if they have the Best Visual Effects award im sure to root for PGL to win that title because it deserves it, with all the rich colors and 3D impose in the film (although it still look fake), so far only PGL has that commercial and international feel to it.

Strange though Qaisy and Laila, should have higher chances then PGL. Its another breakthrough film as well.

Now, apparently they are writing petition to the juries about this. I think thats not professional.

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aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
dan aku tak bisa menyentuh jiwamu
Seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku telah terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
(namun kau masih) terdiam membisu

~ Menanti Sebuah Jawaban by Padi (OST Ungu Violet)~

It is so depressing with the bombings that has happened in London.
For all the dis-satisfactions why must they resort to this..?
Understand their anguish but what's the conclusion of all these..?

As a muslim myself, it's easy to understand why these mass violence is happening,
Sometimes when things like these happen,'them' are quick to judge and point their fingers at Muslim terrorist groups..Wish i could show my middle finger back at their noses.

But if these groups has done the deed, its so sad how Islam's good name has been tarnished.

Can someone find a solution to make them happy..? UN what have they been doing..?

Haizz sad reality we are living in..

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Browsing the web for my dosage of daily goss and i found the shocking truth,
Luther Vandross had passed away on the 1st of July. What a huge loss..

Received another sad news today around noon. Nenek's elder sister passed away. Nenek was devastated, mama told me she was very close with arwah Nenek 'Rock' short for Rokiah, just a nick we endearingly called her by. The demise of Nenek 'Rock' condition of the way she passed away reminds me of my late Nenek from my dad's side.. Painful to accept, i guess the best of science are not always the answer.

May Allah bless her soul. Amin.

A quick rundown regarding about last Friday birthday celebration of 3 cancerians.

Although it started off badly, not as perfect as i envision it to be but all was good when we reach the chalet that Gendeng had book for a night. The Dj was playing gd music, friends were all mingling and giggling. Pictures were taken. 2 Cakes were cut.
Played Charades and a silly forfeit for the losers and winners gets a little something.
Twister totally rocks, as we saw our ladies get into positions that only the guys got to drool. Every guests did not go home empty handed, a token of appreciation from us Su,Zif and me that goes with the theme that night, a little valve perfume of several posh brands and a picture card of us. Thank you guys :) It was fun. Nuff' said!

Espcially to GENDENG, Thank you for arranging everything! it was all worthwhile and i felt like ive not said enough thanks! You made it happened and im so grateful to you,
muakkksss!!!You know you are the Man!Who dont know?(a private joke heehe) *wink* right??

Here are some photos,that im rajin enough to upload among many others that was wacky and uncensored..hehe












Yeps, darn my digi camera is giving problems and i got to loan Elfy's camera. And speaking of Elfy, thank you darling! This year's present(S) was the ultimate any other best friend could ask for! The top, the eyebrow and also a make-up artist who came all the way to my house just for the night! Truly i appreciate everything babes!
And yes thank you to others who got the bag that i wanted and also the FCUK perfume! and wonderful chocolates !!! Besides that the earrings (thanx Kak lina & Syed) and also the pretty slippers!!and many other stuffs!! thank u thank u thank u!!i love them all!

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On the other hand,went to ikea with Raihan today to get her gifts for her students but darn i know it will be a pain in the eye,due to all the beautiful furnitures they have there!!

I want to revamp my room, maybe i should soften the look of my room, paint my walls again..hmm..i like the furnitures at ikea..haizz..heh mama has given the green light,
haizz ayah as usual says its nonsensical, well in time he will give in hehe espcially mama is alredy on my side (another reason la to get her to revamp her living room aiyoh)

Besides that, went out on a date with Gendeng! The works! Movie and dinner heh its been awhile! Watch Sin City, its very Kill Bill since Tarantino guest directed it, story very draggy but special effects was perfecto, excellent!
Dinner was very very filling! Fried Chicken Briyani at Spize makan place, one of the best i tasted so far..!
Thank you Gendeng again,i have a habit of thanking him for everything which can get annoying,heh

Well my day has been fruitful, tmr another long day..

Toodles!

Surfing porn sites at work, Japanese Porn sites to be exact
And getting paid for it!!

Hahaha i love my job!!
Doing research have never been fun till now!

OooH yah, i wanna go Japan too!
Hmm was thinking going to Love-hotels for honeymoon in Japan will be cool, oh darn they have vibrating condoms also, and plus they have dick in a cup also! hehe Japanese are not as prudent as i assume, damnn it they have Japanese Sex Engineers!! Can anyone beat that!!

Hehe well excuse me, getting horny and kinky you must right for the sake of work hehe
okok my mind will be polluted for a week, therefore


Have a 'wet' tuesday everyone!! Showers everywhere la hehee..

Last weekend was over too soon..im famished dead tired till now,
Cant believe i still drag myself to work after the chalet, heh

But thank you guys for makin it happen last friday nite! Although i apologised that it did not had a good start but honestly i had enjoyed the night so much!

To Su and Zif, i hope you guys like what we got you and it really was an honour to have my birthday celebrated with you guys, turning 21 some more, surely this will be one of the birthdays that will be imprinted in my brain for a long time to come!

To Elfy,Ayu,Siti,Azfidah,Islyana,Kin,Zul,Faris,Nas,Aza,Wahab and Man, your presence was very much appreciated. You guys were wonderful!

To Syed, yeps thanks for the wishes again and also thank you very much for helping Gendeng with preparations for the party. Too bad you didnt get to wear your new outfit to the party ;),damnn that last min job! heh nonetheless hope you like the 'berkat'.

To Diyar, hey apology accepted although its such a letdown you cant be there, i understand you had work commitments! Thank you Diyar for being the backbone for this party and without you things will not happen and yes thank you for the card i guess seeing you in purple in the photo will suffice, darnn i like to see you in person wearing it!!

To gendeng, much love and many thanks to you! Sorry i know you were disappointed on the earlier part but we ended the night great ;)

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Will elaborate more about the birthday party with photos to boot in the next entry and many more thanks will be mention again.

For now im off to bed!!!!

Have a pleasant week everyone!

THIS IS IT!
The BIG 2-1 has arrive today on this date..

It is one of the most awaited moments for everyone to turn 21, when i was a teen
i was also eager to be 21,'the key' they call it..

But honestly, i don't feel anything, heh silly im not expecting something magical to happen but well i was hoping an overwhelm feeling of turning 21, but no i dont have it?!it just feels like everyday ..just nothing you know!it doesnt feel like my birthday either!

Is it because im just too drained out and the anticipation has died out..? I dont know..

As a little girl, i used to have 'The Story of My Life' which of course had too many fairy tales and too many happy endings..

And so far here i am 21 years old, it has change to 'This Story of My Life', it has been tainted with unpleasant things that i never wish it happened to me, things i regret and things i abhor. But these had taught me valuable lessons that im very grateful for in the end. Nevertheless there are happy moments too that was so wonderful and incredible for which i will hold it dear to me and cherish them.

Reflecting back, im glad i went through these things because it made me more thoughful and wiser..

*Mama i love you very much and for all the sacrifices that you went through for me i will never ever forget that..

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On a more happier note, thank you's to all who have wish me and the advance presents i got so far.. It was really a pleasant surprise.

And guys, i cant wait for friday too! I hope it will be a blast!!

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Happy Birthday to me :)

It's the start of the week and im so exhausted already,
So many things to look forward too,
Cant believe in a few days i'll turn a year older,

And somehow im in a dilemma, i still have not decide what to wear for the 'all' important night on Friday,
I went almost to every store and still im contemplating my choices,
Isn't it so weird?
Like when you don't have occasions,and you go shopping and you spot a killer dress and tell yourself 'hey, that is a nice dress to go on a night out'
But here i am, starting to panic because i dont have much time to shop
The thing is i have so many choices but to find a 'perfect' outfit is so difficult la!

I think most woman will somehow relate to this..haizz what should i settle on..??!
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Bumped into old friend the other day, almost didnt recognise her if she had not made the first move .. Gosh she didnt look her age, and she is still as talkative as ever but yeah, what surprises me was that she is married (an all sponsored wedding) for 3 years and has a 2 year old son..She is glowing and the fact that she is the same age as me.
Looking at where she is now,she has definitely moved on to another phase of life..
Interesting indeed, although i have other friends who are also married but somehow the happiness i see in her eyes as she showed me her photo of her husband and son, i saw pure adoration for her love ones..and yeah before we part she said 'you know, find a good husband who will take care of you and loves you deeply and everything will fall into place',i find that endearing :)

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Besides that, i had an interesting conversation with the cab driver in the morning on my way to work

Cab-driver: 'Cab fare is going to increase soon, do you know?'

Me: 'oh really? wah the bus and mrt fare just went up now cab fare also?by how much?'

Cab-driver: 'soon the meter will start $2.80 la,haha yah lor everything also go up'

Me: 'haha,yah everything is not cheap la now'

His next question baffled me hehe

Cab-driver: 'i ask u ah, the pay got raise or not?'

Me: 'err..not that i know of?'

Cab-driver: 'Yah lah, everything also must raise then how our pay no raise??not balance what,correct or not?'

Hahaha when he said that i cant help but agree with him,i took cabs early in the morning to work,cab drivers have so interesting characters and the life stories that they are so willingly to share sometimes amused me,like the one i mention above was really a funny guy,
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And also today, the sound man brought his D70 camera to test out! And i just gawk at it!! Gosh the camera look so handsome! And a few of us discuss about photography,
how exciting, i've been a closet-fan of photography and someday will love to pick it up professionally and the only thing that dampen my motivation is how darn expensive it can be..sigh..how i will love to own an SLR camera one day, and it doesnt have to be digital somehow i miss those shutter sound when you snap away,

Oh why must everything be costly..?

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ok haha its been awhile since i write a lengthy one

Anyways



Stage to BIG Screen
Arts Central's drama series Stage to Screen is showing at Cathay Cineleisure, Panasonic Hall 8
Time: 9:30pm
Free admission (limited to no. of seats in theatre, first-come-first-served)

They are showing 2 dramas tomorrow, one of them is from the production house that im working with currently..Show some love for local film industry, so do come down and watch,its free!!

For more information click here

Why cant the world be more peaceful..?

Spielberg has done it again,

Although the ending was cliche, everything else was well done..

The suspense was immensely good,
The sound was fantastic and i mean really really fantastic,
And what i like most about the movie is the drama between Tom Cruise and his kids,
Certainly a tear-jerker..

So yeah although after a few days of posting the entry that im going to watch War of the Worlds,I had people came up to me and told me that it was not really good (because of the ending),i hate it when people do that but heh i do not deny i do that too sometimes,but i always assure them that it's my judgement and they have to see it for themselves. You cant please everyone, differnt people different opinion..and like gendeng keep saying 'What do u expect?!' (his favourite phrase at the moment,hahaa)

*So Syarifah,i watch it and it's really good, go and watch it soon..!

My rate: 8 1/2 / 10

This is one of those days..
Im feeling so god damn grouchy this morning,
Its almost to the weekend and im dreading it..urghh

And sometimes i don't understand, why some people think the world just revolves
around them..?
And that we have to be attentive and cater to their needs..?
And somehow it just stalls everything else..?

That is so god damn selfish..!

I cant stand this kind of things because then i feel remorse for them and i hate having this kind of animosity towards people..

I know myself too well,
Because if they bite me, i wont give face and bite them twice harder
And honestly i loathe doing that, but hey u step over my toe im still okay but when u step over my head, you are going over the boundary

Why should i let them get away with it and feeling smug and mighty high
For all i care,if u want to show that kind of attitude, you can kiss my ass

But then again i disgust myself by writing an entry that is fuming with hatred so early in the morning..

Damnn you people.

If i get to wear a Vera Wang gown on my Wedding one day (like i mention before in one of my past entry),
It's only fair that i get to go Hawaii on my Honeymoon and stay in one and only Vera Wang Suite..?
Because ive totally fallen in love with everything that is Vera Wang,
Oh and i almost moan when i saw the beautiful bathroom but then i groan louder when i
saw the bedroom (no sexual innuendos i hope)..sigh..









For US$4,000 a night, i will have wring out dry my hubby's bank account espcially after our lavish-yet-simplistic wedding affair (*note = still fictitious) but i cant help being smitten by this
Another ..sigh...

Rest assured im not so much of a materialistic bitch (just in case any potential suitors get turn off by this).. but hey if i do get the suite i'll make sure my stay there is worth every penny of that US$4,000..Heheeeee

But then again its Wishful thinking :)
Don't we all..?

Aiyoh berangan tak habis-habis anak dara ni eh..hehee

Watch the trailer months ago, and i wasnt that enthusiastic about it..
The trailer witheld a lot of things but then again that's what a trailer is all about..

And so since the opening i heard rave reviews from people who had watch,
Apparently it's so good they never expect it..

I guess the trailer has done it's deed by not showing too much and the people who go and watch will not have high expectations(right rajan?),and surprise everyone in the end..

Therefore i want to go and watch it real soon before another fella brag to me how good it is and pester me to go watch!!

Gendeng do u hear me..?!!! I want to watch it la!!! Please please hear me plead?!!
I know we will have a swell time watching it..! i buy you ice lemon tea and nachos to go with it ok..??

Darnn, i shall watch this movie before the week ends that i must..!!

Such great friends i have :)

Thank you Faris for your recent entry 'Ode to My Good Friend'..

A very sweet gesture and i hope you mean what you wrote ;)
But really, a friend is a friend who should stay around beyond true love, so our friendship stops after i found my soulmate..?

Heh sorry, you know i love teasing you..

Therefore, likewise this entry is dedicated to you also
To a guy who admits he's a 'Klutz' !

*Psst i have a confession to make, im a klutz too! i guess a few of my close friends are nodding their head when they read this,im actually (finally) proclaiming myself as one

So Faris, if you say that 'i'll make your frown turn upside down'
I in return 'will make your tears of sorrow into tears of joy'
How's that..?
(honestly i have no idea what that means, just take it Lis has said something deep heehee)

A Lot Like Love..
Has strike a chord in me.. I felt a lump in my throat, its not really because the movie moved me so much but to fall in love all over again with a person who's there all along over a span of time its really something,
haizz can it possibly happen..? Right now, i am comfortable where i am but sometimes i wonder if im just kidding myself waiting for something that is not even so sure yet..

It can be painstakingly tedious, espcially when the person you care for is just right in front of you, but nothing can be done yet for i am too afraid that the slightest broach might ruin everything that is good right now..

But how can i endure the void that i prolong inside me..?
For all the smiles,
For all the laughter,
That ive shown
And for all,
the pretense that it dont really matter anymore
was just my disguise..?
You'll never know that it still hurt as much inside
You'll never know just how much i will love to run over to you and wrap my arms around you
You'll never know just how much i want to tell you that this time it will be different
You'll never know how excruciating it is not being able to express how i really feel
or
You'll never know how difficult for me to be around you espcially when there are lines being drawn

But alas, im still afraid
I ask myself, is the pain pent up inside me and the walls that i built around me knowing it can crumble anytime given its due, worth all the risk? just hoping that in given time and patience, that you realise how much you really mean the world to me..?

Pondering if this is a lot like love..?
To suffer how lethal it is before we finally give in what's beckoning inside our hearts and live happily ever after..?

Then i suppose,i can still go on pretending and be content with the way things are now ..

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Pardon this entry..
Cant help im missing something when in actual truth he's just within my reach but untouchable..

Haizz otherwise, im good, chirpy and bubbly.. just that sometimes the emptiness i hide it well inside crept up when at the most unexpected moments and you cant curb it..

**Oh and yes the Song Iris that is playing explains a lot how i feel, and obviously on repeat mode everyday.. sighh