Not many people know this but Lis has been behind the steering wheel lately.
Yeps, i have been taking my practical lessons. Although to some this may not be a huge deal but to those who knows me very well,im sure will be stun and 'how come you didnt tell me?' formed on their lips. Heh it's no big deal that is why i've been keeping mumed unless you ask.

If you have read my past entries, some of you will realised my fear of driving. The thing is, i want to be able to drive but due to certain incidents im not so sure if im cut for it. Even my mama has her doubts still. The first time i had my practical lesson, i wanted to turn back because i wasnt sure if i could master enough courage just to sit behind the wheels let alone start the engine. I was smiling and listening intently to whatever my instructor was telling me, nodding at almost every info. But the moment he said 'ok now you sit here, i sit the passenger side', i cursed! Wtf like seriously, its my first lesson and this old man trust this girl who never drove a car before to drive?? Who am i kidding right? Paid SO much of course they will thrust me into the driver's seat on your first lesson. I was just in denial, heh..

Now im getting the hang of it, in fact i cant wait to go for my lessons each week! I still tremble but the moment the engine roared to life, my focus mode was at it's highest.It does feels good to conquer your fear. Although mama made me laughed when she asked if i hit the car into anything, so you see she is more worried if i harm the vehicle rather then i get hurt.

Anyways, now that i have some experience of being able to drive i guess it's ok to survey the kind of wheels i would like to own eventually.. Insyallah.. Im working towards that goal for 2007, so exciting! Tapi of course la kan ikut kemampuan, im not a tychoon's daughter you know..heh

I do not wish to own any fancy cars, i prefer man to drive them and make it look sexy. As i mentioned before i love bulky cars with a beautiful structure (and do even think about bulky men eh LMT), like the SUV. But of course i am a practical person, price has to be reasonable and the vehicle look stylish to suit me.

Part of why i love going to work is because i love drooling the many types of vehicle
that is parked. Ive been eyeing these few babies







Then again i have to marry a 'Datuk' to afford these babies above

Im content to drive these..


Especially my current favs below..




Honda Jazz in Pink!! Faints!!!sigh..


My ultimate automobile, the toyota rush!

But hold your thoughts, and assume 'here is another superficial bitch'.

Trust me, i am at a point where i want this license not because i want to flaunt it.
If that was the sole reason i would have passed 4 years back. I need this for my survival skills. If i want to keep working in this industry, my driving license is very essential and my other priority is, i want to be able to drive for my family. I want to send and fetch my dad from work. I want to be able to ease mama's burden by sending her to her weekly jb trips and let her shop to her hearts content without worrying if she can manage to carry everything back. I want to fetch my sister from school so that she will not give excuses as to why she's home late. These are the simple pleasures that drove me to toughen myself up and obtain the license. I thought to myself 'if so many millions of people can do it,why cant i?'.. it work wonders i tell you ;)

I wanted a one-on-one time with myself the previous night after work.
It was just one of those days when solitary became your best friend and let you listen to what your heart says..

One thing i learnt is never to be swayed by what the heart says,
The follow your heart statement is bullshit.
Can you count the number of times when you thought you trusted the heart's intuitive and ended up in the losing end?

So yesterday i made my decision with mind over matter..
It took me half an hour,
But i finally decided to buy the green file instead of the orange.
Although it was the orange that tugged my heartstrings first.
I walked away without looking back, as much as i know i like the orange file better.

I made it sound like it's a life-altering decision,
It is if you change it to a different context.
I gave myself a pat in the back for taking this tiny step of not allowing myself
to brood over 'what ifs'..
Life is too wonderful to bother so much over what your heart is trying to tell you.
At the end of the day i believe, you decide 80% with your logical mind and let the other 20% be your intuitive. Hey you cant neglect that, its very much a part of you..

I know, shake your head and wonder what crap im talking about?
Never mind just understand that right now i have a NEW GREEN FILE! Finally i got all my sheets organise and it looks cool!

Good day everyone!
Happy smiles comes with happy thoughts :)

And so it came and went..
The months of antipation ended in all but 3 hours last Sunday,
It was beautiful, alive, mesmerising and witty.

A production i would have love to be a part of..



A foreign Tuah who made it his own, the Puteri Gunung Ledang who captivates everyone with her graceful dance movements and her soft-spoken ways, and Sultan Mahmud who tickles me with his comedic dance routine..

Although ive been told that the one staged in KL was much better. This is not to say that it had been a disappointment,indefinitely(!) especially when they received the standing ovation applause at the end of it all. I could have simply felt the overwhelming achievement that Tiara was experiencing :)

A wonderful experience that i am glad i share it with a fellow half Melaka by blood albeit i may be the last person you would want to watch it with. For myself, i would like to thank you very much for being such a great company,it could not have been any better and it kinda reassures me for awhile that maybe after all things were actually normal that night.. oh well :)

This week has passed by painfully slow, although work had been crazy the past few days. It's no complain really, i like it when work keeps me preoccupied most of the time and i love it when by the time i got home i feel all exhausted, my bed is where i seek my solace :)

Albeit, one of the days this week i got to squeeze a few hours and spend it with
the bestie, and finally (finally!) caught Step-Up, yes now i fully understand why miss su and miss kin could not stop gushing about the movie!



That guy is hot stuff! I was practically moaning, and could stop myself from grinning each time he smiles and his sexy dimples! Phew! The movie of course was great, i love how their dance was choreograph and i was grooving to the soundtracks from the movie (and im enjoying it now as well ehem ehem!) The current song in my blog is also from the soundtrack, my favourite scene too! Whereby they were dancing during the sunset, my god! It was beautiful (in terms of cinematography too)! And i have already added that as in the dancing during the sunset to my own-couple-to-do long list with my boyfriend in the future and i dont bloody care if he dance like a duck..sigh..

Anyways,i love my day last friday, i cannot believe i smile back at a cute guy who was at a sidewalk cafe! Hahaha! Oh lordy! The words were 'smile back' ok! How can that fleeting second gave you the butterfly effect in the tummy? He was in one of my favourite outfit , shirt folded to the elbow with bermudas, kinda sexy! Just don't ask me why! I just like it! What got into me i simply do not know, normally i would just looked away or looked down, yes i am SHY people!!! Yes you you you and you! I am really shy la tu lah kau orang dah kenal sangat dengan aku kan tapi memang betol ok aku memang shy orang nye!ehehehee..

Oh that was when i was on the way to Sports & Fitness Expo at Suntec. I went recce at the place with my collegue, heh a good reason to turn up late to the office! But i enjoyed myself over there, it felt different when you have the 'media' tag on you, not bragging or anything like that, anyways i seldom talk about what i really do, but yeah people were awfully nice, you dont have to queue for the goodie bag, and best skali you got to enjoy the reception! The expo is being held for 3 days and if you are a sports freak hop down, tomorrow is the last day.

My highlight of during my time there was when i had my eyes consulted at The Lasik Surgery Clinic, one of my reasons why i was looking forward to the expo. If you could recall a few entries back how phobic i can get when i forget to bring my glasses, i thought it would be wonderful if i can get these eyes fixed and i can no longer need them. It was quite cool as they checked my eyes especially when they put eyedrops to my eyes which made them feel numb so that they can use this machine which had a needle-like pen that touches the surface of your eyes. Yes it's cool because i really felt my eyes went numb! After the consultation with another free appointment made next month at Paragon, i realised that i shall put this onhold i mean hello! Its $1380 PER EYE ok!!! It nearly made my eyeballs popped out!

Takpelah, i'll just stay content and look like a geek with my glasses on, i shall not be taken in with what the lady said 'oh you have such beautiful eyes, im sure you will look better without them'..Im sure she will have to say that quite a lot for the 3 days,heh..

Alright, shall stop my entry here before it gets more lengthy. I have an early day tomorrow and i am looking forward to tomorrow's evening, will let you guys know the outcome soon ;)

What does it take to have someone to say the 3 meaningful words to you, and his reason will be as silly as he cant stand the way you drive him crazy, the way you cringe your forehead when you are deep in thought, or the fact that you still look beautiful to him when you are in a mess,the one he goes to when he needs to make a big decision,the person he trust most with his life, and he like its when you twitch your nose,the girl who defies everything he said but he adores it just because you have a mind of your own,he finds you cute whenever you eat ice-cream and smudges yourself like a little girl,the way you dont care but in actual truth he knows how worried you are about him, he likes looking at you reading a book because it is sexy,he loves the way you pout your lips when things dont go your way and all he wants to do is kiss it away, and especially he cannot understand why you annoy him so much and he cannot comprehend you are the one he needs despite everything or how wrong you are for him, and how all those reasons doesn't make sense at all but he knows that whenever he is by your side, it just felt right..

By the end of it all, what does it take to have someone who wont grow tired of you?

Haizzz... i sound very deprived aint i?

Last Sunday was indeed well spent with my childhood friends, eventhough it's a bit basi to go 'jalan raya'..
At the end of the day this 'raya-ing' was just another excuse for us to gather and catch up with each other. Alas, the turn-up this year wasnt as good as the previous years (and we got to push the dates 3 times before it happened), because the rest had other commitments which we totally forgive ;)

This year we also did not raid too many houses, only 3! Believe it or not! But this gives us ample time to not rush,had a good time chilling over at Kin's house, heh felt so full digging in to Kin's mom dishes, with the rainy weather being extra cosy,plus Miss Kin whom we all have not met for quite awhile serves us black coffee to relax as we waited for Isly to wake up and get her ass over! By the way,ehem Kinnie serves really good black coffee!













Our last stopover for raya visiting, ended at Azfidah's house. We all simply love her white chocolate flakes, oogling at her sister's wedding photo album (best kan!), bitching about how MTV real world show made Americans look stupid, and me refusing to budge at the end of it all since it was the last house and it's only 7.30pm!



But of course, the 4 ladies who still believe that we had not done enough catching up decided to have plenty more over at Mac'D (wherelse??). The whole session was very much needed as we goss about everything a girl would! From fashion, celebs, right down to our all time No 1 list Man! We could not stop laughing when Kin mentioned that Isly will cause an European war! Topics moved on to another important aspect career wise and ended with all of us feeling the Monday blues,heh!

Oh! And before we all parted We managed to cam-whore as well! Sudah lama tak buat keje macam ni kan!!









Isly baby, don't hate me for this but, i really like this photo just because true happiness is written all over your face, im sure its because you had fun that night or it's because January is coming soon heheehe.. I like it so much im going to print this out!!

Thank you guys, for sparing your Sunday with me. It was indeed wonderful, wish we had more days like these but i foresee since most of us are very career-driven people with hectic schedules it is very hard for us to gather the whole bunch anytime soon, so please you ladies make our Vivo shopping excuse materialise!! Shoes shoes shoes!!!


By the way Ryehan made special cameo appearance on my childhood friends day! How apt because she is also one my longest childhood friends! 16 Years babe! Hey it was a pleasant surprise meeting you with your boy! And how appropiate eh, bermaaf-maafan di tepi causewaypoint!Tak senonoh!

Sesungguhnya kementelan-mu terserlah begitu sekali..

Mat-rempit in the making..? I hope not, look at how cheeky he is and i dont want to even delve how he goes around kissing young cute girls..



And my adorable niece, i see a feisty lady in the making! Very much like your aunt hehe,that i approve! Yeps always get the upper-hand, that's the way baby!

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On another note, i am amaze i survived my day yesterday without my glasses!!
Yes this gundu forgotten to bring along her top most essential item that her life depended upon..Usually the moment i realised that im without it, my reaction is almost similar to someone who just has an asthma attack..Uh huh my eyesight is that bad, i cant barely focus things within 10 foot away..

Hokay so there are those who cant help to wonder who the hell this Mr LMT is.
It is only suffice to say that he is the only man by far who can drive me insane, the one who can easily get on my nerves but can still be nonchalant abt it. The one who loves to mock me like nobody's business and thinks it's for my own good! Oh did i mention that he also loves to push my buttons and be so ignorant? Well not literally of course the pushing the buttons part i mean!

Despite all these, he is also the one who motivates certain aspect of my life by nagging which does me good in the end. Or how very elderly his advises can be and make a lot of sense. The one who i just enjoy having conversations with, the fact that he disagree with almost everything i said really stimulates the mind,which means the intellectual communication somehow turns me on. I must tell you, although he can be very stubborn, he is a gentleman. The kind that treats every lady with utmost care,ewww i cant believe i just said that!! Oh and it's really endearing how we love the same kind of music plus i find it so likable/adorable that he is man enough to love watching romantic movies. I wish all man are that way, the kind that keeps in touch with his feminine side. But my most favourite thing about this man is, how i love the instances he humour me till i get tears in my eyes! Yes he is funny like that! And psst let me share with you, i just love how sexy he sounds when he's at work, very manly!
Heh he is so gonna screw me for just saying that! Yikes!

But let me clarify our status, he is not exactly my boyfriend. What is he then? He is what he is, the man who i am really blessed to have known, who has a very good heart i believe. And oh oh! He score brownie points by bringin me out to have supper across the causeway at a Kelong last Sunday! Its my very first time and i find it so sweet of you to bring me to a lovely venue, as much as im so touched im sure that it was absolutely no plans at all to romanticise me whatsoever! Although right, it could have been better if the sea had been on high tide instead of low, heh..

**Hey you, whatever mix reaction you get upon reading this, i just answered your question you pose to me recently if you can recall. I just find it too mushy to say it verbally to you! Like Oh my god, don't you know i am indeed very shy like that!

I had a lovely time with my lovely idiots yesterday especially with you Baidah bestie!













Thank you so much for sparing me your precious with extra time included (!)just so you could accompany and entertain my nonsense darling, i know i can be such a pain in the ass for being indecisive when buying things, so thank you for tolerating that girlfriend!

But most of all, no one ever made me blush like you did yesterday night. You made me feel special that i never thought i am that way hokay, somehow it boost the self-confidence a bit better..? Should be a good thing right?

I hope it's a day well-spent for you too, yes im sure it does even how much you deny how 'kental' it was to take photos using your camera phone heh i apologize for being an idiot because i forgot to bring my cam hor! Just the way to end the night when you have a big day which is today actually so by the time you read this i hope everything goes well and that you rock today babe!

There are certain things in life that you condemned so much and the thought of being as close proximity to do with anything you loathe is never going to happen

But Life as we all know can be sneaky at times, and recently (well not so recent actually) i was being thrown into a situation which i used to be not so fond of. Not that i dont have a choice, in fact i can choose not to be in it if i want too. So why do i chose to? It was just one of those instinct when i just felt that it was the way to go, at the same time discover my own limitations towards doing things that goes against my principles.

It took a lot of getting used to and adapting myself independently quickly,those who are close to me are aware that i am superficial at what i do because of what i condemned. Truth is,this maybe a blessing in disguise, if we give ourselves a chance to change the perception of what we hate (which we didnt know much about in the first place) we are actually doing ourselves a favour. Now things have changed a little, and i have much respect for every task i do. Never did it occured in my mind in the first place that i will enjoy myself immersely and i really have to swallow my pride to say this but i actually like where i am now heh..

Mr LMT you are right sometimes, to judge something you dont know well is not fair. Because now i have to take back words and i am not stopping you from having the last laugh at this but ummm there's no need to rub it in too often ok?

I was already rushing as i board a cab on the way to a collegue house for raya visiting with the rest. The cab driver obviously notice how preoccupied i looked as i was rummaging through my handbag to look for my mobile, at the same time to ensure i brought my wallet.

He asked " So Tampines is it madam? Which way do you want to go?"

I was so irritated because every cab driver should know but i answered politely (still looking inside the bag mind you!)

" Go by SLE then TPE, thank you"

The he said "oh ok of course can can, go SLE then TPE exit by KFC right?"

I answered "oh ok yah right correct"

Obviously this 'selenge' is really downright 'selenge'! As much as i heard what he said i did not pay much attention which caused him to erupt into a series of laughter which then made me looked up with a puzzle expression on my face

"ermm what is so funny uncle?"

"Haha,it's you la madam.. I said exit by KFC and you can still answer me correct!"

Haha ok so ive been duped by this wise cab driver, i can only joined him in his laughter over my plain silly-ness! It was such a delightment to be entertained after feeling so tired the whole day from work to home and going out again.

I do admit, when i have so many things on my mind i will start to wander barely paying attention to what's going on around me thus causing me to be such a klutz! But thanks to this humble cab driver, it was a pleasant ride to tampines while we engaged in a good conversation, little did i know when i almost reached my destination he said that he is actually handicapped, and then he knocked on his leg, i was stunned to know that it was an artificial leg! He told me he was the only handicapped driver in Singapore and he has appeared in papers before over an accident in a industrial machinery accident that causes him to lost his leg. The man amazes me, who went through a life-changing experience and his will of determination is something everyone should be envy about.

Its funny how sometimes, you can have the most interesting conversation with a stranger and at the end of it, you cant help but smile over how wonderful it had been. Somehow you stumble upon a stranger and realised he had just enriched your well-being by educating you life lessons leaving you with a positive note. I always enjoyed those rare moments when i got them.

So did you have an interesting conversation with a stranger lately..?

Good day all :)

Mr LMT also known as the righteous one, has grown bolder by telling me he has compile a list for my resolution(s), yes with the extra S at the back because the list has amounted to number 89.

He said i can be too blunt, too talkative (like an old granny is his exact words), i am not good with numbers, i am nosy, just to name a few

Now the thing is, you tell me if my list of resolution(s) that he has kindly compile for me increases by the day and i am suppose to take heed of those to improve myself for year 2007, i believe i will be close to perfection! Although i am so so so thankful to you for putting SO SO SO much effort for me, please take note i feel kinda bruised about some of the statements hokay!

I may have all those annoying qualities about me but i cannot comprehend myself being the so called 'demure-lady' image that you have in mind my dear. I mean come on, despite all those im sure you meant to say how you adore those qualities in me :)

Its okay, obviously we got to work on your shy-ness more but i see VAST improvement ever since, you too have grown to be quite blunt..

Tsk tsk.. never ever step beyond your 'sifu' can?? Therefore refrain yourself from making me lose my level of tolerance, you do not want to see that other side i tell you, dont say i never warn you eh..

So there you go,i hope i do provide you with something interesting to read??
Now now dont you dare give me that smirk on your face, and shake your head as you chant my name 'illyyanis illyyanis'(im sure you know la what i mean) ;)

All i want to do is to find a spot for me to safely land..
To come down crash and burn is something i don't ever wish to go through again.. However wonderful it feels to fly and soar high in the sky, there is no denying what i am putting at risk..

Because it became clear to me that Life is not a fairy tale, to hope for the most beautiful happy ending is what every dreamer yearns but with hindrance staring back at me i believe to stop longing for something you have started to grow attached too is only the right thing to do..

Anyways to delved deep into my heart and understand what it feels scares me a lot, so what makes me think that there will be someone who will do the deed and give me the answers ive been waiting for all this while..?
I only hope to be stronger for myself, so to eventually have this someone who will cushion my fall one day and him with the answers to my heart will show me that there is such thing as Fairy Tale in our own twisted way..

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Ladies and gentlemen, it became apparent that my entries have turned bland and un-interesting especially with the missing entries of my celebration during raya (according to this someone i define as Mr LMT)..

Truth be told, I have not been feeling the raya atmosphere. For some reason, all the hype has been wearing me off. Besides giving myself the valid excuse that I've been working that barely left me enough time to absorb everything that is going on around me, Raya has somehow lost it's sense of identity in a way.. With SMS replacing the greeting cards, ketupat being replaced by the instant 'ADABI' ketupat that will be cooked in over an hour, or how dull it seems now the mrt ride is as you see less home with the 'lampu lap-lip'and not to mention many other things.. See see how to get the vibe of hari raya? In fact my family and i have not been going visiting much this year since dad is also busy with work.

But i guess thanks to a group of friends that unexpectedly revived this zoned-out chick for such a fun day! It was so fun that im updating this entry pronto even without waiting for the rest of the photos which i doubt will come my way soon!















Although there were some people that were missing from this outing (but no worries we will make up for another day just for you guys!) it was indeed a crazy bunch of people who are just simply comfortable with each other! Yes no matter how blunt we can be, how burping can be such a turn off, how 'kiasu' we were to drool over the food, how idiotic we are, or how simply typical we can be, we just dont care and that's why we are always at ease with each other :)

Thanks for another year of happiness and joy during syawal, next can we do that timeline of photos for the past 10 years we have been celebrating raya together?! Mesti confirm kelakar! Siap siap la (*joke of the day!)!!

Jessica's new song 'I Belong To Me', sounds not too bad actually



It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yea

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me