Panic rose over me when i was scheduling my dates as the 'date' is nearing...

It is less then a month and when all these while, those who are aware kept reminding me, i just shrugged it away and had been casual about it. Truth be told, I am actually anxious about it but in order not to freak out I had push it far from my mind till to a point that I had not realised that June will come knockin' in a few days!!

After some random suggestions of pushing some slots here and there, frustations then began to settle in i can neither slot it here nor there just because my schedule is already tight with so many things.. 'oh shit' is the only thing i can say.

Its a wake up call and after today i am going to start counting down to the 'date'.

The thing is im all set and raring to go, in fact the 'date' is totally un-necessary. It's only the fear what if i screw up on the 'date'.. Cant make that happen.

Which means my pondering thought of escaping the island for a couple of days will have to scrap. Guess i will not make it for the short trip with the bestie :(

Money is crucial this month especially the amount needed to spend for the nearing 'date'.

And the GSS is not helping at all, bloody hell.. Saw a top I really really really have to get and a bottom i simply cannot resist just because its 70% off.. Set my mind to get them next week if possible and I made myself promise not to spend anymore for the entire month of June. With so many temptations in town, i shall stay away from stepping my foot into the area until July.

GSS aside...

In the mean time I just need to take a deep breath and live..

Maybe Johnny Depp can help me ;) .. [Get well soon if u may :)]

I totally believe talking to a guy after his long day at work, is not advisable. All he does is whine, slurrrr his words, and blabber things which can be puzzling .. For no apparent reason, he start questioning things pertaining matters which he jolly well knows will get on my nerves..

Yes this is written right after our conversation Mr LMT. My earlier contented mode was dashed by the one and only Mr LMT.

And to think I have fallen hard for him doesnt make it seem easy. Dont worry his eyes will somehow turn blind after he reads the second paragraph, his momentary blindness is beyond scientific explaination.

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And halfway through this entry Mr Hanafi aka my dad came home and he just have the thing to soothe me down, the sinful chocolate truffle cake..ahhhh

I leave it at that, no aversion towards him whatsoever since well its his annoying ways which turn me on in the first place... In fact what I have just reveal here, he is oblivious to it.

Like I said he will definitely turn blind by default after he reads the second paragraph. Have pity on him.

Maybe he was just envious that it was my day off today but he had to slogg away at work ;)
hence he had to irritate me with nonsensical questions i think..

That must be it la,ok im all good the truffle cake does wonders!

Well hello, i was enjoying my afternoon earlier at home alone with cashew nut cookies dipped in hot Milo, and like finally getting down to actually read GLAMOUR May issue which i bought a few weeks back untouched. My reading cells got all engrossed with articles like:

• Real Women Real Bodies
• The AIDS Orphan who's healing her country
• "They tried to cure me of being gay"
• I used to be a "yes woman"
  
• Sleeping Secrets for Busy Women
• Diary of Drunken Marriage
• "I had a major meltdown at work - Now what?"
  
• Wedding Planning: What men think
  
• Is he a mama's Boy?
• Clothes Like His, But Cuter!
  
• Good Reasons not to be Miss Goody Two Shoes
  
• The great GLAMOUR Body Plan
• 12 things that raise your risk of skin cancer
• Your Looks: Are you obsessed?
• Do less, look prettier!

All these and many more interesting reads and fashion pictorials spread that got me "oooh and ahhh"...

Especially when Kate Beckinsale grace the cover for this month, looking healthy and beautiful!

Oh and oops i forgot to mention another one of the interesting topics as you can already see on the cover "15 totally new things to know about sex" heheee... ;)

All these kept me pre-occupied for the entire afternoon, my own well-deserved time to be with myself just reading and enriching my self-knowledge for humanity, health, beauty,career,men and of course the all time favourite Fashion..

Contented and relaxed is my current mode, now what more could a woman want..? =)

We were just having our usual chat and it turned into something deep..

Mama my only sole confidant said to let the kite go gently although it is the hardest thing to do.. Despite the smiles and laughter I shared with her everyday, a mother's instinct never fails to know something is amiss with her daughter.. I guess my eyes must have gave it away when she questioned me..I understood what she meant.

Thank you for the heart to heart talk, you made me see things in a different perspective, thank you for understanding the way I feel subdued with the way things are going.. Thank you for telling me its only natural and not to be disheartened if it might afterall not mine for keeps..You say the words I wanted to hear..

And each time I feel so crushed and lost, I only have to look back at you.
This maybe long overdue but Mama is more then just a mother to me.. She is my everything..

It doesnt have to be a mother's day to appreciate how special she will always be to me..

Ok shidah darling firstly thanks to you for being the great girlfriend that you are by forwarding me the email alert!

Charles and Keith are having up to 70% warehouse sale ya'll till this Sunday!

It was the only thing that kept me on my feet the whole day at work before my day ends! Like it was truly TGIF! I dragged along a perfect victim for my pursuit so as to share my guilt hehee.. Anyway, it was exactly what i need to feel liberated to push away certain matters that is bugging me.. The perfect cure? Bags and shoes is every woman weakness, this is one fact you can never go wrong.

Kak Lini and myself accomplished what we set out to do and came out a survivor, you cannot believe when we saw every woman at the warehouse turned into greedy monsters, filling in every nook and cranny with barely space to even have a gasped of decent air! The madness! Of course, after planning strategically how we would go about it, we embarked on our starting point (yes that is very critical!), we were so proud of ourselves to brave through the many obstacles we had, more like rough it out! Hahaa it was hilarious! But you should see all the ladies walked out of the warehouse looking satisfied with their purchases.. Phew! I could do this everyday you know, i think its almost as equivalent as working out in a gym!

And Kak Lini the experience was orgasmic, ok not in that horny sorta way! Plus getting 101 lessons from you is priceless! Yups getting your hubby 2 pairs of shoes reason being an advance father's day gift was a smart move! Khehehe i took down all the necessary notes and its all in my little black book... Im sure it will come in handy when my time comes in the future ;)..And by the way i always enjoy watching you and abang hisham have the usual 'romantic bickering', you guys never fail to entertain me on our way back home..

Oh Great Singapore Sale is coming soon isnt it..? Looks like we ladies can look forward to more workouts in the upcoming month.. Hello Blistered toes.. Bye bye kachings ;)
The ingenious things we do to keep our minds occupied.. Its almost the same euphoria like watching soccer actually or at least that's how I see it ;)

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Talking to you is like talking to a wall..

So everyone's talking about it! Have you got yours?

Aleh heh you know that im talking about the GST OFFSET PACKAGE!

All i got was the mere amount of $200 but then again it is still money in my face so im not complaining much either ;)

Although i think its a bit too long to wait in July, how apt i will take it as an advance birthday present from the government himself fourteen days earlier away from mine.. ;)

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Speaking of which, Gendeng has turned 28 on the 15th May.. He thinks he's gettin younger i say 'IN YOUR DREAMS' ..heh

Spiderman 3 is surely not at all enticing for die-hard Spiderman comic lovers for obvious reasons because the plot strays away from its original story but then again they got a deal to make 3 more spiderman movies so im sure they intend to fit in all sorts of nemesis in the upcoming ones. I love it simply because I was excited to watch Venom! I wish it had appeared much earlier,it was exciting to watch his quick movements, the sand storm was sensational.. The CGI effects is beautiful (yeps that's the nerd in me talking)and my god one thing i found it was tacky was when Spiderman changed into his black suit! That was so un-necessary...

Oh and ladies if we talk about drool factor, im sorry i dont feel for spiderman this time. James Franco who acted as Harry Osbourne caught my attention.. His flirtish ways made me blush can you believe that?!!? I cannot stand it when he gave his lopsided smile, insanefully gorgeous i had to keep smiling to myself! Major sexiness ,he got my knees turn into jellies!



Therefore, I would gladly make an appeal here right now. You men out there who thinks you have a lopsided smile as sexy as Mr James Franco over here, i need you. So you can make my knees wobble permanently.

Midnight movie with my family last sat! I was confident we could catch the 9.40pm show but what the hell! It was full house!





*Yes how fun it was to snap a few photos while waiting for our movie @ 11.55pm..heh

Jangan Pandang Belakang was not too bad at all! Mak Mah was convincing and the best thing is having to tell the Producer personally what I thought of his film the very next day... The irony I tell you..hehe

If you need something to spook you up then you should go watch this one,especially go watch it at the theatre for the experience

And Mr Spiderman Im coming for you this Friday.. Just you wait! ;)

I treated myself to a spanking new mobile phone :)

So far so good, it has been 5 days since i bought it and I have not lost it yet (Choy choy!)..I seriously cannot forget the incident last January when I lost my mobile phone only after purchasing it for 2 days old!

My new mobile nah its nuthing fancy, its not at all 3G enabled...what can i say im more of a superficial person ;).. I bought it because of the design, colour and i was dying to have a slide phone.


I do not rely on my mobile to be jam packed with features like mp3 player and such,i prefer them gadgets seperately on its own but Oh boy my sister showed me a whole new world by guiding me through the features of my new phone! Heh, its quite cool you know, the camera is so darn clear by my standards for someone who detest mobile phone cameras quality!

My first photo test


Plus the radio feature is so convenient heh, tuning in to Class 95 Love Songs on my way back home from work is pleasing to the ears and (and!) let me say it again! Its a Slide phone i like!

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Thursday was my off day and it was a well awaited day! Shopping with the bestie and her sister, absolute contentment (for now)! Though we shall pay a visit soon, i need to get a pair of addidas sneakers which elfy bought that i just had to get it soon soon!!

*Psst photo taken with my camera phone..heheee i know i know i sound pathetic!


And finally i need to thank Kak lini for pampering me for the evening treat.. It was bliss...I enjoyed myself immensely =) Thank you to you and abang hisham for sending me back home yet again!! The whole pampering session was so good that i had a hard time waking up early this morning :))

The sinking feeling which I feel was somehow strange but not at all foreign as to why I feel this way...

I shouldn't.. I know

For this, im seeing myself starting to build up a wall around me all over again.,Ive let you in too far, the slightest notion of knowing something I wasnt suppose to give a hoot about did a reverse on my emotional self

Since you asked and I tell you I am jealous, what are the odds of you taking it seriously..?

I foresee it as zilch...

Maybe its time to make a decision with mind over heart.

But then again I need to drop a humongous big stone on your head to get you to understand what I'm trying to say.. Reality bites guys..it does painfully.